Its #CerebralPalsy Awareness month. So, I thought Id make you aware of how RevelAtion-ary accepting that I have #CerebralPalsy has been for me. This is what hit me today: Last weekend, I realized one of the reasons why I had been depressed for so long. Why no matter how hard I worked I was never (and I do mean NEVER) truly happy with anything I did. I have started going back to Occupational Therapy the last few weeks. My first day, my therapist had me give her a writing sample with each hand. I told her that Im really supposed to be Right handed, but because of the weakness on my Right side from the CP, I learned how to do everything with my Left. After my evaluation, she said wed work on using my right hand. She also said I could work on it myself at home. So, I told my Auntie See Sea (idk why Lol). And that weekend, writing with my Right hand was my job. Thats when it first dawned on me that I CAN write with BOTH hands equally legibly. It just takes much longer with my right because of its weakness. I CAN do it, I just had to take my time to put forth my best effort. Then, TODAY, TONIGHT, while I was cleaning up, it hit me again, at the same time I was reminded of what my Daddy (Donald T. Eason Jr always told me, to do my best! Thats when it came full circle. Its not that I couldnt do things with my Right hand; it was just that I figured out I could do it good enough & fast with my Left. Since, my Daddy told me to do my best, in my adolescent mind I somehow figured for me that meant to use just my stronger hand. BUT! Imagine how much better I could have done things if I would have taken my time AND did my best, not just settled for good enough. I couldnt do my best a lot of the time because I was rushing trying to keep up with everybody else. But tonight, I realized that I dont have to abandon my weakness. I can use that too. Yeah, I can get it done faster if I used my strong hand. BUT if I wanted to do my best, I have to use my strength and weakness and take my time. So, I thought to myself like, Pssh! If somebody wants my best, they just gone have to wait! Not because I cant do it good enough and fast. But because I want to be able to do like my Daddy said and always do my best. But thats not even, the REVELATION-ary part. The climax is this: I realized I could do things good & fast with my Left hand. But I do things BEST when I use both hands and take my time! Too often we want what we want good & fast, and sometimes God allows it. Hes gracious to us and works things out for our good despite our impatience. But, God would rather not just give us what we desire quickly or good enough. He knows the thoughts he thinks towards us. Hed rather, because HE LOVES our impatient selves, give us HIS BEST. In order to have His best for us, we have to wait on Him. We can have good enough now. Or we can have Gods Best a little bit later. So as I end, I echo David, The Psalmist of the 27th Psalm, verse 14, Wait on the Lord; Be of good courage...
Posted on: Wed, 05 Mar 2014 22:22:10 +0000
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