Its been so long since I have started to meet great masters and receiving amazing teachings..... And I do have complete trust that if I strive hard and practice one pointedly, neither the lamas nor their teachings will deceive me!! Such unique teachings..... You kno, in the manuals they tell us about the different signs a practitioner is to experience.... But when I think about it, I have had none! The dry education I have had of the scriptures are slipping from my mind and the elixir of experience is but a myth to me. Its not like I dont want to try, I do. But then I dont try at all!! And on that, I have some people in my life who tells me to relax, be happy, enjoy emotions and be kind..... Well, thats really not helping guys!! My friends, I dont know what is stopping me. It is very scary,!! Everyday, I do the same things everybody else does!! Despite the instructions!!! And on that, I have done so much to strengthen my grasping in the name of spreading the message of dharma. I really am a deaf musician. And when I die, n I certainly will, none of u can help me, maybe some of u will hear the news of my death...... Most of you will maybe wonder at some point, hey, wheres that dude? Why isnt he posting things? . The fear I will encounter, the uncertainty, the crushing loneliness after having been forced from my human form, no one, none of u can help me. And above all, the regret and guilt of not following the teaching of our gurus while I could will eat the remaining strength of my courage. Damn, we really need to stop living in crowds, it makes us forget we are alone.
Posted on: Sun, 27 Jul 2014 16:57:19 +0000
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