Ive been reminiscing this morning and its always crazy how much life changes each year! A year ago, we hadnt had any evaluations for Kemzey yet, so I was still letting myself be slightly in denial about her autism. I was overwhelmed about accepting it and didnt let myself until we had her first eval on January 10. Even though the therapists could only tell me that she had red flags for autism, I knew at that point there was no denying it anymore. I was devastated honestly, I wont act like I was fine with the new path my life had taken. Id cry about all the things Kemzey might not ever do. Initially I started losing weight out of grief. I would forget to eat. When I stepped on a scale in march, I discovered I had lost 20 pounds without even trying. At that point I decided to take control of the things I could control in my life. I wanted to lose weight the healthy way and work out more. I started using working out as a way to cope with my emotions. I would channel all my frustrations into workouts and even burst into tears sometimes during them. 2014 was a rough year, but also one of the most amazing years of self discovery Ive ever had. Kemzey has also come so far in a year! The games she can play on the iPad now blows my mind and her communication has improved so much. Shes getting so much help and Im so grateful we are in Wyoming, because the services are amazing here. Shes really getting her best chance! Twenty years ago, she wouldnt have had nearly as many services. What a great time for a special little girl like Kemz to be born! A year ago I weighed almost 60 pounds more! Ive come so far physically and emotionally. Even though I dont see it in the moment, I am thankful for those struggles that have made me a stronger person. Heres to 2015 and another year of growth!
Posted on: Fri, 02 Jan 2015 19:23:35 +0000
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