Ive been through a lot of shit in my life. Ive experienced more in 25 years than most do in a lifetime. Lost my brother & dad to murder, literally had there blood on my hands. I deal with PTSD, Bi-Polar and some of the experiences I had being abused as a child and verbally abused and abandoned still effect me today. I can be an asshole, I can be a jerk, I can be human and say things I dont mean. I get frustrated and throw my hands up But dont ever make the mistake of thinking I dont have a heart after all this. Sometimes I think my hearts to big for its own good. Its been damaged so much that the slightest things now LITERALLY cause pain, pain most wouldnt understand. I dont think Im a bad person, but I know Im far from perfect. But if your one of the few I truly love then that means your very special. I understand in return Im hard to love, hard to understand & difficult to emotionally attach to and sometimes I am my worst enemy. Right now it literally feels like my hearts coming out of my chest and I dont know what else to do... a person is only as strong as they can be for a limited amount of time. The options are far and few and we all knew it was coming.
Posted on: Fri, 28 Nov 2014 01:46:06 +0000
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