I’ve realized a few things in the last yr & a half of my “retirement”..... First off, it doesn’t matter how much networking I do, or how many resumes I put out there....I can do that til the cows come home, but if there are no takers, or my phone isn’t ringing with offers, nothing’s gonna change....Second, you do indeed find who your TRUE friends are when you’re life is thrown into chaos,,,,One thing I never EVER expected ? People who are blood relatives to disappear when I was in a tailspin....and friends who are closest thing to family, who once assured me that they “love” me suddenly vanish,,,,That’s ok, I don’t forget things, but I can forget people..No matter HOW close they are to me or me to them....All I’m sayin is that it really came at me from left field is all......And I’m noticing something the last couple of days about myself....Over the last yr or so, I have become bored,,,,I mean with EVERYTHING....sure a couple of times things got me jazzed....but for the most part, blah....But here’s what I noticed the last few days...There’s this feeling that I’ve been getting where I am starting to feel like I’m “useless”,,,,And I have never felt that way about myself before...,,I ain’t sad about it... no, I’m PISSED about it....And it ain’t a good feeling to think you’re “useless”, because what comes next is “what’s the point”....And “what’s the point” can be defined in countless ways...One thing I am CERTAIN I won’t do, is turn to the bottle..( Because if I DO, it won’t solve anything, and besides, the end result would be unpredictable...the odds I do not like ),,,,hmmm....maybe it’s being in my mid 50s?
Posted on: Sun, 03 Nov 2013 08:48:32 +0000
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