LORD JESUS, please change my heart even a fourth like of St Padre Pio... † Fra Fucci’s observations on Padre Pio’s Mass: He was totally absorbed and conscious of what he was about to fulfill. His face which was of normal color became frighteningly pale when he put on the amice. From that moment onwards he paid no more attention to anyone. Clothed in the sacred vestments he made his way to the altar. Even though I walked ahead of him, I was aware that his gait became more dragging, his face sorrowful. He seemed to stoop always more, as if, I thought, crushed beneath the weight of a gigantic invisible cross. Once he arrived at the altar he kissed it lovingly and his pale face became inflamed. His cheeks would become crimson, his skin translucent so that one almost saw the flow of blood that rushed to his cheeks. After the Confiteor, he beat his breast with hollow and heavy blows as if accusing himself of all the worst sins committed by man. His eyes remained closed without being able to prevent large tears that disappeared into his thick beard. At the Gospel, as he announced the Word of God, it seemed as if he fed himself with these words, tasting their infinite sweetness. Immediately after, the colloquy between Padre Pio and the Eternal began, and he wept abundant tears. He who had received the gift of contemplation from the Lord was penetrating into the depth of the Redemption. The veils of that mystery having been torn by the suffering of his faith and love, all things human disappeared from his sight. Before his gaze was God alone! Everyone saw Padre Pio suffering. He pronounced the liturgical prayers with difficulty and interrupted by sobs. The Padre felt embarrassment at being watched by the curious eye. He would have preferred to celebrate Mass privately so as to be able to give free rein to his suffering and to his indescribable love. In those moments Padre Pio lived sensibly and really the Passion of the Lord. He was outside time! That was why his Mass lasted an hour and a half or probably more. At the Elevation his suffering reached its height. Watching his weeping, his sobbing, I was afraid his heart would burst, that he was about to faint from one moment to the next. Gods Spirit had by now penetrated his whole body. His soul was buried in God. He offered himself with Christ, victim for his brothers in exile. His heart must have burned like a volcano. He prayed intensely for his spiritual children, for the sick, and for those who had already left this world. I heard him repeat often through his tears: My God! My God! A spectacle of faith, love, suffering and emotion that reached the point of drama when the Padre raised the Host. The sleeves of the surplice came down and his torn, bleeding hands were in the sight of all, whereas his gaze was on God! At Communion he seemed to relax. Transfigured in a passionate, ecstatic abandon, he fed on the Flesh and Blood of Jesus. How much love emanated from his face! The people, astounded, could not but kneel before that mystical agony, to that total annihilation of himself. The incorporation, the assimilation, the fusion was total! Padre Pio would remain as if stunned as he tasted all the divine sweetness that only Jesus in the Eucharist knows how to give. So the sacrifice of the Mass would be completed with a real participation of love, of suffering and blood. And it brought about many conversions. At the end of the Mass another suffering would devour him—that of going to the choir loft to remain alone and in silence, recollected in prayer to be able to thank Jesus. He would remain immobile as if without life, so absorbed was he in divine contemplation. The Mass of Padre Pio! No one will be able to describe it. Only one who has had the privilege of living it can understand. Footnote 1 Fr. Modestino (1917-2011) was a lay brother who resided with Padre Pio at San Giovanni Rotondo for several years. His words on serving Mass for the saintly priest are extracted from The Voice of Padre Pio (periodical of the Capuchins at San Giovanni Rotondo), “Witness to the Padre”, pp 19-20.
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