Lately Ive heard more people saying marriage changes nothing. Ive also heard a few say marriage changes everything. I feel it does both. There wasnt much marriage could change in our relationship. He is still who he was. I am still who I have been. Dustin still prefers not to go outside when its cold. I still want to wear slippers and fuzzy pj bottoms all the time. He still lays on the floor and yells at Madden when he cannot get his little football player to move the right way, and I still laugh and ask, You winning? Marriage has changed more than I thought it would. I have a peace, comfort, and I guess maybe a security that I cannot really describe. I could say it is from knowing he wont decide to leave, but I already knew that. Maybe its knowing that he loves me and wants me and sees me in a way only he can, but I already knew that too. I think maybe its me. It may not be so much that I wanted Dustin to be my husband (I totally did) as I wanted to be his wife. (Totally nailed that one) I want to spend the rest of my life doing the best I can to make sure he will not be alone. I want to show him faith and help him stand. I want him to know what it is to be loved even for the dark, ugly, and kind of scary parts. I want him to know he will never have to be alone. I want for him to know that for the rest of my days his heart is safe, that he is safe. Hes safe to be himself , whoever that is and will be. Hes safe to screw up and melt down and he wont lose out or push me away. He can twist around and appear to be different and while frustrating as it can be he can know that he can find patience and love here in this home with me. There is an honor here. I know how to cherish someone. Him more so than others. Obviously. I guess these things did not come about because of the union... they are reasons for it. When you find yourself looking at the person who wants all of those things for you and your family (current or future) you have to give them more than youve given anyone else. You have to give them a everything. You become one. So we did. We are ONE perfectly paired, crazy, whirlwind redneck, fairytale, love song. With cats. And a Kat. And christmas lights up all year long.
Posted on: Mon, 08 Dec 2014 03:44:06 +0000
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