My 8am had to cancel earlier this week. I didnt fill the spot and until last night I was wondering how I had missed the gap. Universal energy at work because this morning I had an unexpected meeting. I have written about our cat Ritz in the past. He was the one who ruled the roost. When Ritz walked through the room the tribe stopped their shenanigans and waited for him to settle in his place. I got home last night and went to his room to get him as I usually did before I started getting the bus ready for the next day. Ritz would tend to the vines and take naps as I ended my day, he was my sidekick when it came to the garden and bus prep. I saw Ritz sleeping on the bed on one of his favorite magazines, he was an avid reader. As I perched over him to say hello I noticed he was not breathing. My heart stopped. Ritz had transitioned to his next journey and my heart fell to pieces. Ritz had not been sick, he was 14 and seemed to be in good shape but it was his time and I was powerless. I have never lost anyone or any animal without plenty of time to begin grieving and to have closure, this is new to me. We adopted Ritz after his owner had passed and we had only had him for 2 years. Ritz grieved for his dad for quite a while but eventually embraced his new routine. Not too happy about all his new siblings Ritz eventually just took charge to get them all in line. And he made the house his own and he was as happy as Ritz could ever be among the ones he deemed nutso. I awoke this morning to a routine without Ritz. Morning coffee siting among the vines without my buddy is not the same. But all of you reading this have been there with a person or a pet. We are stopped in our tracks, we dont want to get in step with life and we wonder how we will adjust to the emptiness that comes when we are left behind. As I sat outside last night holding Ritz, Kendra came by to drop off a mom and four kittens that had been trapped. One of the kittens was blue or gray just like Ritz. We named him Carlton after his fathers last name. Little bitty kittens just beginning their journey and in my arms was a lifetime of joy, if only for a couple of years. Ritz made all the difference in our lives and this one is going to hurt like hell for some time. But in the crate the life cycle continues and Carlton and his sibs need us to get back in step with the rhythm of this life, in the here and now. So funny how the Great Spirit dangles the carrot for us when we need it most. So I met with Paws memorial at 8am this morning, kinda strange how the schedule worked today and how life beckons us to keep moving forward just because we really have to...Journey On.
Posted on: Wed, 30 Jul 2014 13:47:56 +0000
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