Normally I wouldnt do this, especially on fb, but since it has been brought to my attention I feel I should say something ab it. Im sick of always standing back and holding my tongue for the sake of everyone elses feelings and not taking my own into consideration. As most of you may have heard, I was recently in the hospital. Ive heard a thousand rumors as to why I was there and what I was there for, but I do believe I was the one admitted and there for a week so who do you think knows best? oh yeah, me! so here it is.. I was in mental behavior rehab center in Jackson at St. Dominics. I was admitted for severe recurrent depression (non-suicidal). Why? I havent exactly had the perfect life, and Im not here to say that everyone else has. Everyone goes through hard times in their life. Some just know how to handle it better than I did. I kept everything bottled up inside of me the best that I knew how and only discussed my feelings to one person. That person being Tyler Brumfield. So, with that being said.. when Tyler was tragically and unexpectedly taken from us, I was lost. I lost my bestfriend. Someone who completely understood me and knew everything about me, all of my secrets, had seen the worst and the best sides of myself and still loved me for exactly who I was. If youve never had someone like that in your life then lost them without warning, dont pretend like you know what if feels like or what Ive been through. This has been one of the hardest years of my life but Ive gotten through it, not easily, but I have. I wake up every morning and appreciate what I do still have, even more than I used to. Ive found out who my true friends really are, and Ive found someone else who cares about me completely, beyond belief considering all of my flaws. This person does NOT take Tyler Brumfields place by no means, but he has filled a hole in my heart that I thought would never go away. If it werent for Tyler Moore and just a few other friends and family I have no idea where Id be right now. I am a better person, not saying I was a bad person but Im better now than I ever was. So for all of you running your mouths about me, my problems and my decisions.. think about what youre saying. You make yourselves look like heartless individuals and I promise no one looks up to your negativity unless they are just as low down as you are. Happiness is key guys, stop dwelling on others happiness and trying to tear it apart just to build your own bc youll only feel worse ab yourself in the long run. Im sorry this is so long, but I felt it needed to all be set out on the table for the fools who think they know it all and feel the need to discuss my issues with others when they dont know a single fact. No, Im not crazy. Im not psychotic. Im a normal human being with feelings who lost one of the most important people in their life and I lost myself in it, so get over yourselves.
Posted on: Tue, 07 Oct 2014 19:42:26 +0000
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