Nov.17, 2013 Today is a difficult day for me and my sons One year ago today is when we had to make a very difficult and painful decision with their dad. He was declared mentally brain dead and we had to decide if we were ready to disconnect the machine which were the ONLY thing keeping him alive. I knew Chris would not want to continue like this as we had several discussions (prior to him getting sick) on this very subject. We all 4 made the decision however I could not bare to remain in the room while they did this even though they assured me he would be in NO-ZERO amount of pain or discomfort. Travis was the brave one and tried to be my strength when I was weak. He remained in the room until his dad was pronounced dead by the attending doctors and staff. I know he will never be in any pain again and has gone home to be with our father and other loved ones up above. However the pain we endure when left behind is so overwhelming and makes my heart ache so much and my eyes continue to water even today although it has been one year now. Not a minute and hour a day goes by without me missing him so much. He was my soulmate and without him I am only half of what I used to be. I am so very thankful that he did not suffer and have much discomfort at all. It happened so quickly and my life changed within the blink of an eye. am very thankful for my/our 3 amazing sons and loving daughter in laws with 6 grandchildren to keep me going everyday. They really are the reason I am strong today as I know the children will have difficulty when I do pass so everyday is one I hope to give them memories they can remember and cherish for a lifetime. They always know when to call or climb in my lap and make me smile to warm my heart and fill it with their innocent love. Kolten tells me Grandma youre the Best and Bailey yesterday must of told me 50 times just out of the blue Grandma I love you. It really makes my heart proud when the children tell you these things without being coaxed to say a word. So you see my friends I do have such an awesome amount of love pouring out not only from yal but from the little guys who mean the world to me and their Grandad. Even through my sorrow I have so much to be thankful for and God has blessed me in so many different ways.
Posted on: Sun, 17 Nov 2013 22:06:12 +0000
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