OK pity ..not my fault... I have a zit so it must be that time soon.. so my neighbors who dont know I have ms must think I drink a lot.. my walking skills are getting worse, I know it and feel it, things hurt and are awkward, wiping tears aWAY, I dont want to end up in a wheel chair... so I try to push myself ..tonight I made it across the field , ya me, but I deserve a relationship, where my partner makes sure im safe walking, not someone who benefits from having a family and yet gets to play single. Its not fair, I told him this , but it means nothing to him. I know airing dirty laundry but im scared and hurt and sick of him, he is a drunk.. nothing wrong with having a drink but when you seem to do it every night, and im home alone lonely .. bells going off. im feel like I have been strong so long , and yet when I need help, nothing worse then nothing..im going to fill out that form to get a membership to the eastlink, I was going to wait but , maybe I need to swim, everyone says its the best for this ..ms thing, ok I new I gained weight, and finally went and weighed myself, its a starting point, it wasnt as bad as I thought but everything is going to my stomach, thank god not my boobs , I think they would burst, lol.. so crunches are going to be a must, its not like I dont know how to loose weight, 5 yrs ago I lost 100 pounds..i need to kick myself in the ass and improve my lifestyle, I think my days of my pity party need to be done,damn I will miss my people at tim hortons until I can drink coffee without sugar, or French vanilla, ugh ugh ugh,, ok tears are gone giving myself a hug and according to Caitlins weird show on tree house, the kid just said you can do it seriously dooo doo ,,, ignore me ..tomorrow will be a better day! I need proper eye candy ..going window shopping,,if you made it this far, im sorry for this ,,, I could delete but sometimes I need people to know that im not always doing good,,
Posted on: Sat, 19 Jul 2014 05:18:59 +0000
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