OPEN HEART SURGERY Watching my mum recover from her last surgery has been a great learning process for me. I’d say I’ve known her for nearly 40 years (counting from the time I was in her womb), I’ve never seen her so helpless and ‘not in charge’. You may not fully understand what I mean. My mother at the age of 75 has the strength of an ox. Imagine a 70 year old woman beating up a 50 year old man who duped us like a child…uhuh…that’s my mum. I truly admire and sometimes envy her strength and tenacity. I realised these past few months of observing her that I’m spiritually at exactly where she is medically and it’s no funny place to be. She’s at the point in her life where doctors, nurses, friends, children and even her grand-children, are telling her what to and not to do. This isn’t because she too weak to do anything, but rather because, one tiny careless move could result in a major setback that could cause permanent damage. She’s restless, upset, frustrated, helpless and on the few occasions that she forgot herself and tried to do things as before, the grand-children would scream to stop her in her tracks. Wondering how this relates to my spiritual life? Well, 2 years ago I caught a revelation on the Scripture BLESSED ARE THE PURE IN HEART FOR THEY SHALL SEE GOD, so I asked God to work on my heart – wrong request! I know. Little did I know that He was going to do an open heart surgery, without anesthesia or even an analgesic. Unlike my mum who has recovery timelines, I have no clue when this will end, that’s if it will even end at all. From the look of things, I may bear this excruciating pain for the rest of my life. You may be at this very spot…NOTHING MAKES SENSE, the end is not in sight, you can but aren’t allowed to help yourself, anybody and I mean anybody can say or do anything to you but you won’t be free to respond or complain. The only thing you’re allowed to do during this CRAZY PERIOD is to ASK Him a 1,000,001 QUESTIONS but HE ISN’T OBLIGED TO ANSWER ANY, because the relationship is on a need to know basis and we don’t need to know. My advice? The PROCESS is UGLY, PAINFUL and SENSELESS, but YOU NEED IT; so TRUST HIM AND LIVE MOMENT BY MOMENT! That’s all you need to survive for now. (((I PRAY FOR STRENGTH IN YOUR INNER MAN TO ENDURE TO THE END IN THE HOLY NAME OF YESHUA))) KEEP THE FAITH! DARE-DEVIL CREW
Posted on: Wed, 03 Sep 2014 11:34:03 +0000
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