Oh, Lord, I have seen the kingdom and it looks so good to me! I am transported to the kingdom when what I say is just what the other needs to hear, when the newest grandchild is experienced as the teacher, when I am filled to overflowing with life and love, when in me there is gratitude and delight and love, when I have the sense of being non-deserving and of overwhelming privilege all at the same time, when I feel loved and forgiven, deserved or not. I have had that full-to-overflowing feeling recently; the sense that there is way too much presence for me to speak of. I, too, have felt the love. I await the fullness of the next experience, the resting in, the tears of an undeserving, very human person. As the year turns the corner into fall everything within me is expecting the same kind of experience, anticipating this happening to me this day, right now. Have you not primed the pump, Lord, by guiding me towards freedom from anxiety, slowing me way down, loving me and helping me, finally, to be able to feel that love?
Posted on: Mon, 09 Sep 2013 08:00:00 +0000