On a messageboard I frequent, someone asked about spiritual journeys from religion to atheism, I responded with this, and wanted to share it on my own page as well. Its not an easy journey to travel, but I am happy with where I am. I didnt immediately jump to atheism after leaving the Mormon church. I thought Jesus was a humanitarian and kept all my Bible related religious stuff. Then I took some classes on global poverty, families and the issues they face all over the world, and I learned about social psychology in another class and I read sociology stuff for fun. (Sometimes I really like school, LOL). The tipping point for me was going in for a standard mammogram and having them find something. I waited 6 months for a baseline comparison and then got a biopsy done which ended up being negative for cancer. In that time frame, I lost all faith in God. I was no more deserving of healthcare or anything in this life really, compared to the percentage of people in the world suffering or starving to death or having no healthcare at all and dying of curable diseases. To me, God isnt real because if he was he would care about all of his children, not just a chosen few. I didnt and dont deserve what I have available to me anymore than anyone else on this Earth. We are all human beings. I relate to humanism more than atheism because atheism has this whole Satanic stereotype to it, but the label applies to me--I am atheist. I also think the Old Testament God is very abusive and violent...so yeah, no more religion for me. As a side note, the nurse doing the biopsy stuff on me was crying because I was so young but it was probably her first day and she knew someone with cancer. I was not crying. I calmly laid there and let the doctor do the biopsy (which is not fun btw). I was not afraid of the results, only sad that not everyone had access to the healthcare I had. Its weird and hard to explain but not believing in an afterlife is actually more calming to me. Knowing this is all I have and I better do the best I can with it brings me peace.
Posted on: Sat, 25 Jan 2014 15:08:09 +0000
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