S3...Chapter twenty five Someone was shaking me back to life...ebendishukumisa mntakabawo ngamandla...bendinomsindo yazi ngoba bendisiya ndingababoni ngoku ooMpe...they were moving further and further away. Their faces disappeared...their smiles disappeared...Nwabisa! Nwabisa! Vuka dammit. I felt soft lips touch against mine...lomntu ebendivuthela umoya...ndavula amehlo am ndikhohlela kakhulu...ndilila nolila...catching my breath at the same time...ibingu Ibenathi...he sat back on his wheelchair ephefumlela phezulu...did he just do a mouth to mouth on me? Ibenathi:What were you thinking? Nwabisa? Damn. A memory flashed through my mind...Mpe had asked me the same question when I had done it the first time...the time that Inga had died. Ndakhala kakhulu ndibambe isifuba sam...kutheni engandiyekanga ndife nje? Phofu undibone njani? Xa ebesenzani kule rum? Bendinomsindo...ndaske ndamcaphukela wesi...ndamonyanya wesi. After a a while I kept quiet...my breathing was normal again...besijongene...ndisinekile... Me:Ufuna ntoni apha? Ibenathi:Why are you trying to kill yourself? Me:Ndithi ufuna ntoni apha? Ibenathi:I heard you crying and then after a while you went silent...too silent. So I got worried and I came to check up on you. Me:Undive njani? Ibenathi:My room is right next door. Ndathula...ndaguquka ndajonga kwelinye icala. Me:Phuma. Wathula...Ndithe phuma! I raised my voice. Ibenathi:I heard you the first time. Me:Phuma kaloku! Ibenathi:I dont want to. Ndaguquka ndamjonga. Me:Ufuna ntoni kum? Ibenathi:I dont want anything from you Nwabisa. Mxm andadikwa...his face was plain not showing any emotion...and that got to me. Me:I hate you. I blurted out...this didnt shake him at all...You killed him...you...you... Ndaqhawuka...Umbulele umyenam...uTata wabantwana bam. Oko endijongile...Uyithatha njani indoda from ifamily yayo heh? Ibenathi:Look I told Mpendulo that he didnt have to come to Durban but he forced the issue since he felt that he owed me. Me:Owed you what? He exhaled. Ibenathi:Weve been friends since we were 8 years old. Let me just say, when he had it hard I was there for him. Me:Mxm. Ndajonga eceiling...Why him? Ibenathi:Huh? Me:Why ask him when theres so many Physiotherapists out there? Ibenathi:Mpendulo is...uhm...was good at what he did...he came highly recommended. Ndathula...And because he was my friend. If anyone could make me walk again, it was him. Me:Mxm. Andiqondi noba wondzakele nakangako. Ubume ngenyawu ngoku ngoku and uyakwazi ukuhamba...phithi phithi uhleli kwi wheelchair...mxm. Ibenathi:Yes I can...thanks to Mpe...but I cant walk or stand for a long time. I get tired easily then I have to sit down. Ndathula...a tear escaped my eye...Im sorry for what happened to Mpendulo. And you can blame...hate me its fine because I already blame and hate myself. Me:Kutheni ukuze ahambe yedwa nje? Wawuphi wena? Ibenathi:Wandishiya esithi uya kwindawu zakhe. Wayesithi uzogqitha nase Mac Donald ayothenga imeal yakho oyithandayo ngoba uyakukhumbula. Kwabuhlungu entliziyweni...so he was thinking about me before he died...zagcwala iinyembezi emehlweni am...andabona nakakuhle...kwaphuma imifinya...ndazisula ngesandla sam. Me:Ndicela undishi-ye. Ibenathi:I do-. Me:Pleaase. Ndaguqaka ndajonga kwelinye icala...Pleassse ndifu-na uba...ubandedwa. Ibenathi:You wont try to kill yourself? Me:Hayiii. Ibenathi:Okay then. Ndava umnyango uvuleka...waphinda wavaleka...and I cried myself to sleep... Ndavuka ebusuku. Amaxesha esiya ku 7...yhoo kudala ndiyilele into. Isandla sam singebuhlungu nentloko iqaqamba...intliziyo yam ibuhlungu...phofu wonke umzimba wam eqaqamba nje. The room was dark...ndohlika ebhedini...ndayolayita isibane edongeni...ndacuthisa amehlo am...the light was bright in my eyes...ndakhupha slippers zam ebhegini...ndazinxiba. Ndaphuma erumini ndaya etoilet kuqala...ndacama...ndagqiba...my hand was really burning like hell...I think ndiye ndalala phezukwaso. Ndaphuma etoilet ndaya ekitshini...ndafika kukho oosisi abancedisayo bephaka ukutya...ndabulisa...babulisa nabo. Me:Khange nibone plastic one pilisi apha? Lady 1:Ingathi zithathwe nguMam Linda. Me:Uphi yena? Lady 1:Bahleli bonke eliving room. Me:Iphi yona iliving room? She directed me...ndabulela...ndaya khona...ndafika kubukelwe itv...ndabulisa...nabo babulisa. Mam Linda:Izapha sthandwa sam. Kunini ulele. Ndayohlala ecankwakhe...Uleli njani? Ndanyusa amagxa am...Uzobaryt mntanam...isezothatha ixesha...kodwa uzobaryt. Me:Ndicela eza pilisi bendinikwe esibhedlele. Mam Linda:Siyaqaqamba isandla? Ndanqwala...wandijonga uIbenathi...ndamjonga nam wabuyisa amehlo akhe etivini...I wished he didnt exist yazi... Mam Linda:Uzozisela ugqiba kwakho ukutya...kuyaphakwa ngoku. Ndathula...uMamakho befownile. Me:Uthini? Mam Linda:Hayi ebekubuza nje. Ebesithi abantwana oko bebuza ngawe...nango... Ndathula ngoba bendiyazi bebebuza ngoMpendulo...ndaginya. Me:Ngo Mpendulo. uMam Linda wanqwala kancinci...ndalungisa umqala wam... Mam Linda:Kuzofuneka ufumane indlela yobaxelela ukuba uTata...uTata wabo akasekho. Ndakhuza...wonke umntu wandijonga. Me:Ha.a andizukwazi... Ndatsho ndishukumisa intloko yam...Basebancinci ukuba bazi. It would break their heart...ndizothini ukukhalelwa ngabantwana? Bendinyembhezana ngoku...Wandibamba isandla uMam Linda... Mam Linda:Okay ke sthandwa sam. You dont need to tell them now ukuba awukho ready...okay? Ndanqwala ndiciphiza ndapphuma ngokukhawuleza ukuya ebathroom...ndaziqokelela ndabuyela eliving room. Sabizelwa edinner table...sahamba saya khona sonke. Bendihleli ecanko Mam Linda...uTat Jwarha ebehleli kwintloko ye tafile...omnye kwabafana bakhe wahlala opposite yena. Ibenathi nomnye uSis bebehleli phambikwam noMam Linda...lo Sis ephambiko Mam Linda nqo...uIbenathi ephambikwam nqo. Oko ndijonge phantsi ekutyeni kwam ndidlala ngako ngoba bendingalambanga...bendiwava amehlo ka Ibenathi endijongile...bendibawela ukumbuza ukuba undijongele ntoni qa it would be rude table manners. Iwesi nanku mfazi okanye igirlfriend yakhe ecankwakhe...kutheni engajongi yena? oooMam Linda bebencokola nabanye...ndizova aphe ncokweni ukuba amagama babanye abantu ngobani...abafana babini ngu Dinga noZuko...I could see they were in their late 20s. Igama le girlfriend okanye lomfazi ka Ibenathi ngu Fezeka...oko ethetha mntakabawo...ehleka isiqazolo...mmm akumnandi kwabanye abantu. Mam Linda:Itya Sibabalwe mntanam. Me:Andilambanga. Ndatshelo phantsi...ndayeka nalocephe...iattention yonke ibikum ngoku...bendiyicaphukela lonto... Mam Linda:Itya amacephe noba mathathu Siba. Ndashukumisa intloko yam...Ndaku-. Me:Andilambanga Mama! Yeka ukundixhonxha ngokutya hlelinje! I snapped...the table went dead quiet...uMam Linda wajonga eplatini yakhe...ebeqwanyaza kaninzi...I exhaled...Xolo Mama ngoku showta. Wandijonga enenyembezi emehlweni akhe...wancuma. Mam Linda:Okay Siba. I understand mntanam. I felt so bad...she was also hurting...Mpe was her only child...her only son... Me:Xolo nyani Mama. Ndabamba isandla sakhe. Mam Linda:Ndiryt sthandwa sam...sukhathazeka ngam. Tat Jwarha:Zuko nyana khawuphathele uMam Linda amanzi. Zuko:Oh okay. Waphuma...wabuya ne glass ya manzi wanika uMam Linda. Mam Linda:Enkosi Zuko mntanam. Wancuma uZuko...wayohlala phantsi...uMam Linda wasela...Ningade nindibukele ndisela amanzi...khanithetheni maarn. Bahleka abanye. Dinga:Mama uAkhona uselehambile apha eDurban? Akhonas name caught my attention. Mam Linda:Njani ukuba selehambile? Tat Jwarha walungisa umqala wakhe...uDinga wabhekabheka... Dinga:Oh hayi ixolo Ma...bendicinga uyayazi. Mam Linda:Ndazi ntoni? Tat Jwarha:Hayi ayonto inkulu Linda... Wahleka... Ibenathi:Akhona was here three days ago saying shes come to see Mpe...Mpe ke yena wamgxotha asaphinda sambona. Me:Akhona ebelapha? Bendisothukile. Dinga:Uhm...sorry I thought you guys knew. Ibenathi:But Im sure she left the following day because uMpe wamkhupha engathandanga apha...ethukisa ke yenake uAkhona esithi uzakuzisola ngenye imini... Sajongana noMam Linda...
Posted on: Tue, 23 Sep 2014 18:04:12 +0000
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