Seeing all these post about Casey being admitted to the hospital. Makes me look back on the day I was. Walking down that long breeze waiting, thinking you will never get to the end of it. All I could think about was. When I leave here in a couple of days ( didnt happen) Ill be a mommy. They wouldnt let me eat. The beds, dont even get me started. Moved all the time. I had every pillow they had in that hospital. With the inpatient me and the pain it was horrible. Then after I had her they drugged me up so much I couldnt hold her for five mins without getting weak. I didnt get the wheel chair out the door holding your little bundle if joy. I had to stay while my mom had to come get her and I stayed. I couldnt sleep because of all the meds and the infection I was so sick and through up all night. I dont think I kept down one meal there. So I sat up all night looking at pictures my sister would put up or they skyping me and letting me see her. I cried half the time to see there without me. But you know at least she came out healthy and free of infection. I wouldnt change it for the world. I fought for my life for her and I would protect hers in a heart beat. Shes my the miracle that saved my life. If I didnt have her. I dont think I would have fought as hard as I did. I remember when I was seizing for the first time. They didnt know if I was gonna make it or not. My sister was there all upset. Mom gone. The MRI nurse came and got me. I was already on oxygen. He asked are you going to be ok mam my finger motioned for him to come closer. I whispered out of weakness I gotta be. That little girl in there needs me thats the only thing I remember. Before they came and got me I debating let go or stay. I chose to stay. Im going to be there for her until it really is my time to go. I love my daughter.
Posted on: Fri, 27 Jun 2014 07:20:13 +0000
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