So, Im not going to lie. Its been a hard couple of days. I know Mom and I (Dad) have both had our little breakdowns. Thats okay. We needed them. For me, it really hit me as I started writing the book that a number of people have suggested I write in regards to our journey, our battle, and our loss. So, it was kind of expected. Today, it was a bit calmer, a bit closer to stable. Now, something freaking amazing happens. Youll have to reverse the clock a little for this one. A week or two ago, I was cleaning up and found this little Spider-Man silly putty thing someone had given Si at one point or another. It found it just as I was sitting there thinking, its been awhile since I put anything new by Sis urn. I do that now again, find litle things, put them there. Those who know me know I loved to spoil my kids. I havent bought a single toy since this all happened--in fact, even walking down a toy aisle is hard these days--but, thatll change, and I wont doubt if sooner or later I buy a little car or something here or there and leave it with Si. even if only for a little bit. Anyhow, this Spider-Man silly putty thing. I opened it up, there were a few kids fingerprints and impressions in it and I was thinking, eh, I dunno whose those are, but I do know this is Sis and there was a voice that I heard that told me he wanted it. So, I took it over and left it with him. Fast forward to today, a few times I have considered pulling it down, looking at it, I dunno, it was just a feeling. But, I didnt want to be let down. Ill admit, I had hoped for a sign. Tonight, I pull it down, the whole thing is completely smooth, almost like its never been played with, except for this small, partial print right in the center, so small, it could really only be Sis....maybe Cheyeannes, but its not where she could reach it, and I cant imagine how anyone would manage to get it that smooth inside the container. I thought maybe heat, but it hasnt been warm in this office, let alone hot. So, I asked for a sign and I got one with big neon letters. I am somewhat surprised, to be honest. How many times have we asked for signs before and missed them? Sis voice has been silent in my head since the day I decided to put that up there. I dunno. But, I thought it was worth sharing.
Posted on: Fri, 10 Oct 2014 02:21:26 +0000
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