So as I was showering I was praying and enjoying a hot long shower Call me weird but its just my thing. I feel like prayer is so much more clarifying when you are relaxed completely. Anyway..... As I was praying I was communicating with God about love and why I have had so many failed relationships. His answer to me was... Jeannette you love exactly like I want you to openly, honestly, and with no conditions. He said that is not a bad thing. But I send you all the wrong to prepare you for the one. When I send him you will know. I know I have guided you toward alot of me that you have thought I guided you to because he was the "one". But in reality I sent you right in there direction to teach you exactly what you can deal with and cant what you want and refuse to settle for. The he said you have some of the most stable examples of love around you, those relationships good or bad have taught you the necessary foundations of what you deserve. He said you have done exactly what I knew you would do in every single relationship I have placed you in. Now Jeannette stop it. Stop seeking love, I want you to focus on you. You have become the person I want you to be in your heart. You have let down that shell you allowed the devil to place around your heart. That exactly why I have let every relationship you have had since you dedicated your life to me to fail, I needed that shell gone so I could use you in your purest child like form as the loving and caring person I intended you to be. He then said you are now completely my child again, I know you live for me and have found a balance of your spirit and your flesh, and that was exactly my intentions. He then said what I need you to do is focus on you, focus on your assignment with your place of worship, focus on your educations and developing the careers I intended you to have. And most importantly focus on the love I have placed in your life already. I want you to sit back work hard develop all these departments of your life and they will lead you to your covenant partner, the one on the same path and has the same vision as you. He said and Jeannette you have the perfect examples of what you should do leading you I want you to sit back and watch the relationship of your Pastor Judson Medlin-Fraley with his partner. Learn from what they have built I did not put them in your life for no reason. Judson is a man of the same heart you have, he is like you of short patience at times but loves everyone so much. He then said watch your Executive Pastor Deangelo McCoy he knows where your heart is he has more in common with you than you will ever know just because he is at another level in his walk with me does not mean he was not at your point in some time of his life. The he said cling to the mother of your church be at her side she is a wise woman who seeks me at a level you are trying to achieve. The he lastly said Jeannette I need you to stick with Jamie Surgeon she is going through the same struggles as yourself. She struggles with her images as you once did. And though you both have learned to love yourself both of you have to get your health exactly where I see you fit not what you see fit. I am sharing this to say to you all I Love God and for him placing you in my life. I love you guys so much. I love you all for sticking through it all with me through ups and downs good and bad. When I am at my best with God and when I am not doing exactly what I know he wants me to do. He still placed you guys in my life to help me and guide me I could not have asked for a better place to build me into the person I am today. I am not where I know I should be but I know one thing..... I am so far from what I used to be and I thank God for it all especially the beautiful gifts of my family at REAL LIFE Ministries
Posted on: Sat, 10 Aug 2013 03:40:19 +0000
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