So, the husband and I started a new job today. We went from farming to OTR trucking. I couldnt be more pleased with this turn of events. I feel like this is a new start , with a fresh slate. Its really nice to feel content 100%- I honestly feel like a million elephants have been removed from my shoulders. Its not that Ive been unhappy- because Ive been off the charts happy- the last 3 months have been pretty good- well no, parts of it were absolutely amazing. Anyways, we took our first trip in the truck today, it was just a short trip. We left this A.M. And get to sleep in our own beds tonight. Anyways, had a lot of time to think and Ive decided a few things. 1) Im going to soak up every wonderfully blessed moment I get alone w my husband, I feel like this is going to be a time that will be life long memories. 2) Im not going to allow anyone to interfere with or take a single moment of our time. 3) From now on my husband is my main concern. Let me explain- although I have very few people I interact with on a close personal level; they all are important to me. But lately Ive allowed myself to put myself out there for people- some but not all I sadly mistook for actual friends. I will no longer allow myself to accept being on the bottom of peoples list who I have put at the top of mine. I will be giving back and dedicating only what I am shown. I do make the effort to help ppl w whatever every chance I can and sometimes sacrifice things to accommodate the needs of others. I rarely if ever ask ppl for anything- Im pretty independent. So, its really hurtful when I finally allow myself to ask someone for whatever only to be turned down, denied and ignored. Maybe being married has changed my outlook but my wedding- the events, people and all around really opened my eyes and I think for the first time, I looked at the world through grown up eyes. Anyways, this is turning into a novel, really isnt aimed at anyone in particular but I felt like putting these thoughts down. If youve made it this far, thanks for reading. Hope yall all have a wonderful day - blessed be.
Posted on: Sat, 25 Jan 2014 06:10:12 +0000
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