So today i felt it is time i shared whats been going on with me simply because i want to raise awareness for a condition that everyone understands and definitely do not know the signs. An illness often hidden because of the shame that is associated with it, i know i could never admit it for years. I want people to know that my actions in the past 6 months are not to be taken personally, i am sorry if i have hurt anyone. In December of last year, i admitted myself to hospital under the Psychiatric unit for fear of self harm. I have since been diagnosed with severe depression and spent 2 weeks in a locked ward, with limited access to the outside world. Time Which saved my life. I have since been closely monitored by close friends, family and a combination of doctors and social workers too ensure my recovery. I hit rock bottom, a culmination of years of stress and anxiety and despite the smile on my selfies and my drive to succeed both professionally and personally, i was in pain, filled with insecurities and self doubt. I began isolating myself, crying uncontrollably and overall hating myself. I now have no work, my quality of life limited by my current knee condition & have to face and deal with my depression. I have to believe that the only way is up and take back the control. My road to recovery is a slow one, as many aspects of my life need to be overhauled, but i just want to say, dont dismiss another persons sadness and if you sense a change, irrational behavior, or something just doesnt seem right, dont just ask if they are okay (as 9 times out of 10 they will say, yes) seek professional advice on how to approach or guide your actions. You could save someones life.
Posted on: Tue, 13 Jan 2015 03:12:40 +0000