So today i have spent the day thinking. Scary i know! Think about a question a friend asked me the other day and honestly ive thought of my self many times. Do i wish sometimes that i wasnt so nice. I quite frankly its troubled me for quite sometime this feeling of being stepped on and used. I wanted to be the guy that people can run to in times of need. I wanted to help out as much as i can sometimes to a large fault. The answer i have come up with today is No. Why? Because this is who Iam. Sure it really sucks to be taken for granted to be left behind as the world moves forward. I wont lie i get sad. I get really lonely. But its my identity. Everybody has been given a identity we can try to change it but the truth is the real us will always want to come out. So what is the sense in hiding. Of course i look around and sometimes wish i was someone else. But im not. I am me. I am a nice guy. I am not full of myself when i say i believe i am of a rare breed. If being nice is a fault i sudder to think of what being mean and selfish equates to. I sincerly hope i will make people happy in this life. I hope there is a match for me out there that is willing to put up with my bull sometimes but allow me to make them incredibly happy because i am capable of so much more than anyone knows. So hello I am Alex Benzing and I am a nice guy. And if you happen to be a true friend of mine you wont find a more loyal, trustworthy friend. If you let me i am smart and creative if you have goals , dreams. I can help you get there i am good at it . I am always here. Always listening always thinking. And wanting to make this place better. I understand i am not going to gain much in this world by being this guy. I know its still going to be lonely. But who i am to deny myself. All i ask is for the same loyalty. Life is a wave dont run just ride it and see where it goes.
Posted on: Sun, 04 Jan 2015 22:59:47 +0000