So today is my first day back at work after the worst week of my life and I realised that the attempt to overcome is not at all complete...I realise today that the process of overcoming any hardships takes time patirence belief hope and prayer....Its more difficult than iut seems....People asking are u ok...my response two letters ya...next question were u out with your son..was he ill my respionse no for myself 3rd question what was wrong with you? me blurting out It was by far the worst week of my life thuss far...4th Question what happend? me walking away ...I know everybody has good intentions by asking me this but all the questions are the reason why i isolated myself this entire week...Lucky part is i am blessed with the greatest husband in the world...Thank you for aalways being there for me Mr weber...i dunno what i wud do with you...Thank you jared for being the most unique and greatest son in the world. The feelings in heart with the loss experienced is unexplainable...Words cannot describe the pain and missery i feel in my heart...He our son was to be the second original item myself and josh wo9uld have owned...Everyday every moment theres a thought of what coulda or shoulda been..You look for ssomeone to blame...and the only person found is myself....I asked doctors and nurses and family and friends...what caused this..They advised it happens...i question why how y to me...Sleepless nyts followed nights of tears nights of not knowing why this happend...still not knowing what happend...wishing hoping and praying that i would someday overcome this...Currently it just seemd impossible...I treat facebook as my personal blog....One good this that came out of this is that after everything My heart felt cleansed renewed and there has been changes i have made in my life...impeccable changes..Iv always had faith but my faith is evn stronger i trust that in gods time all emotional pain will heal..i trust that my child is safe in the arms of my father in law i know that he will take care of him and make sure he kinows that someday mommy and daddy with to be there...#Brake out in tears #first time speaking out about this #ima end this here no more words to describe the rest of my feeling...I wanna thank my awesome mother brenda barnes husband son daddy Mario and deidre John and marilyn aswell as skamiel and everyone else for being there unconditionally your support means the world to me. #Joshua Joshua Weber MY PERFECT MAN I LOVE U...(My heart is aching my husband hw do i get through today and all the questions...
Posted on: Mon, 06 Oct 2014 05:57:31 +0000
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