Sometimes I get so in touch with God that Ill be sitting alone in tears,with a smile on my face, overcome with joy. You would think Im crazy. Ill be sitting alone in a home that isnt my own. Laying on an air bed. Crying tears of happiness for all God has given me. Im not talking about the things of this world, Im talking about the things this world cant control. Things like wisdom, knowledge, peace of mind. Things that are gained thru spirituality. I smile because I know my time is coming. Ive been gravitating towards Good hearted, positive, God Fearing people. Im avoiding certain people and situations that I know are not right. Im caring less about pleasing people and more about pleasing God. Im maturing, im growing, Im enduring. Im thinking differently so im doing differently. Im becoming different but better. Im doing better things with my time and my money. caring less about the material and carnal things and more about things that benefit my mind body and soul. Im changing. Im becoming who God destined me to be. I just remember a time where I was at my lowest. My life was all a mess. I Couldnt take it anymore. I sat in my room all day, crying , hurt, angry. I yelled at God and I asked him Why is this happening? why are you letting this happen to me? Im a good a person! I do right by people why are bad things always happening to me? and i stayed in my room all day, thinking about life and the decisions Ive made. while consumed in my thoughts I realized I have been doing right by people but i wasnt doing right by God. I wasnt making God happy. My God is a jealous God and he was angry with me so all that had my attention he slowly stopped blessing. After that moment of realization, I began to cry and Asked for forgiveness. I told God I would do better and I asked him to continue to give me strength. The road of salvation isnt an easy road and I know I will be tempted by The devil and also tested by God. So all I needed was the strength to endure. months later, here I am. being tempted by the devil and also tested by God. Sitting alone in my room with a smile on my face, overcome with joy crying tears of happiness for all God has given me. Feeling stronger than ever. And yes Im surely enduring. #PraiseGod.
Posted on: Sat, 04 Oct 2014 20:22:28 +0000
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