Sri PremSamput They remained as such for some time until finally the celestial nymph composed herself and spoke thus, “Ayi Mugdhe! (Oh Enchanted One!) How on earth have you fallen in love with this excessively lascivious Krsna? There is no comparison with this love of yours to be found anywhere within the universe. In your affectionate loving dealings there is no pretense, or any element by which such love might be lost. The emotional impetus of your love knows no resistance. Whoever establishes their faith and trust in an unworthy receptacle brings only sorrow upon themselves and their kith and kin as well. “Even though Sri Krsna is full with all opulences - the most graceful and attractive bodily features, valour, superior good fortune, fame, etc.; and adorned with a mine of jewel-like qualities; nevertheless, when discriminating in matters of love, he falls far short of the mark since all his good qualities are spoiled by one fault. The foundation of this flaw in his character is his excessively libidinous nature. Consequently, to take shelter of such a person is not at all fitting. “That day, after enjoying his wanton dalliance with you in myriad fashion, he repeatedly professed his (counterfeit) love for you with such ardour and solicitude; then he intimated to your simple heart that you should meet him at night for a tryst in the kunja; only so that this gross fraud might abandon you to go off and enjoy with some other charming coquette? “Seeing your anguish and hearing your lamentation, your sakhis were afflicted as well, in fact, even the creepers and birds in the forest shed tears of sympathetic sorrow. While remaining hidden at Vamsivat I observed all of this, my own heart rent asunder.” * [* It is mentioned in Sri UjjvalNilamani that the separation felt by Srimati Radhika is a manifestation of mahabhava, known as Mohanakhya. This mohanakhya affects even the creepers and birds, bringing them to tears.] Sri Krsna (in the garb of a goddess) continued, “In this way, on the most auspicious night of the Sarada Rasa Purnima, Sri Krsna deserted the other beautiful young girls of Vraja (Vrajasundarigana) and vanished with only you has his companion, demonstrating his abundant affection for you. However, after remaining a short time with you, who were so fatigued by an entire night of pleasure pastimes, he also left you alone in the forest. “To see your condition then! -Bewailing your loss with loud and long lamentations, repeatedly falling into deep faints, rousing only to chase after various hallucinations, your mental balance having totally tipped off the scales! Aho! (Alas! Fie!) What a woeful and painful scene; the likes of which I will never be able to forget, life after life, in any or all of the eight different situations of bodily existence (birth, death, old age, etc.), since this scene will forever remain etched in my heart! “Ayi Yasasvini! (Lo! most celebrated lass!) I am a goddess. What pain or suffering will find a place in my heart? But alas! By the whims of Providence, at some inauspicious moment the desire was born in my heart to meet you, and this wish has brought me here only that my heart may be pierced with a spear. He sakhi! Neither do I see now the means by which this spear may be removed from my heart.” He continued, “Sakhi! My heart has thus become bound up with you and therefore I cannot even consider returning to my heavenly home now, having seen your profound distress. Moreover, my heart, afflicted with woe as it is, makes every moment here more and more difficult. My mind reels with every step and I simply cannot recover my composure. For all of these reasons I have, after many days, finally come to see you to reveal my heart. “I am particularly frightened by Sri Krsna since he has no regard whatsoever for religious duties (dharma) or public disrepute. I don’t get even a hint that he has ever set his foot on the path of pity or compassion. (He is so hard-hearted!) In his childhood he began his work of killing females (by killing Putana); in adolescence he killed a bull (Vrsasura); and in his youth he killed a calf (Vatsasura). So you can see that from his childhood he has been engaged in tyranny, oppression and whatever acts are condemned by virtue and morality.” * [* In these verses Krsna has been condemning and criticising himself. The purport of this behaviour is to test the depth of Srimati Radhika’s affection and love for himself. If, after hearing all of these detracting statements, her love is not routed nor eclipsed of its fullness by even a fraction, then the excellence of her love will be proclaimed throughout the universe. He has made these statements as well, with the ardent desire to drink the nectar of the succulent speech that will no doubt issue out from the depths of her heart, scented with her ever fresh love, after Sri Radhika, the crest jewel of all lovers, has listened to his words of censure.]
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