Sure not doing good . What is the idea of a Doctor , who you tell you cant take morphine . When your medical records have been always well stated . NO MORPHINE ... Just ignore it . Tell you you need this , isnt another kind of medicine .. Ive called and called .. Still no change . I also keep telling them the brace hurts me . My leg has never been out of pain, because the brace sits on my tiny little leg right on the bone . I am bruising the same bruising On top of bruising .. No they cant get me another size or even have a physical therapist or tec check it, nor did he really look too hard when I told him it was hurting me . As for morphine... I told him what happens .. I hallucinate , but I dont sit in one place and do it . Very funny , huh. ? I needed help .. I called the insurance company ... If my doctor would approve home care I could have someone at least check on me ... no , no approval for home check ... Let me ask you this ... Who is going to take responsibility , when I die in a fire Ive started because I think Im lighting candles on a birthday cake sitting at a table , you even may be laughing now, but it isnt funny . Im alone all day , can barely walk...have a hard time getting myself food ..You can have someone bring food , you pay for it , but it has a two week wait ... I wont need help by them .. If I dont kill my self by accident ..because I did try to light the birthday candles today Here in my bed .. Right now I am very very Pissed off ... But I am alive . Scared, yes I am .. I have been , Every day. I used to have a daughter . I no longer do . We have no one here. I used to love Arizona ... I hate it .. being In a place with no family here at all.. Am I feeling sorry for myself you may ask .. Well , yes I am Somehow , I think that is allowed when youve come close to burning alive yes I damn well feel sorry for my self .. and scared to death . To bad .. what in the hell am I supposed to do about it ... Ive just about had enough, this past year has tried to kill me more than once ... Ive just so had enough ... Had enough Had enough ..
Posted on: Wed, 04 Dec 2013 23:21:27 +0000