The inception of December has seen the situation go from adverse and dire to extreme and atrocious. No worse moment to deal with cold turkey. Be readily advised to ignore and dismiss any further statuses written here for the coming 2 weeks. I am physically, mentally and morally exhausted after yet another most terrible year. Christmas with all its implications, absolute poverty and debt, and the atrocious timing for a run-out of the poison that usually keeps me going have now combined with other factors to the extent that a full system collapse in nearly inevitable. I shall survive of course, am more than used to this. For many years now, anger and pain have been and remain my most faithful companions and remaining driving force. Shame and pity perhaps, but this is all the world has given me, essentially. Maybe this is why Im so cold despite my warmest clothes. From my dusty corridors and from behind unwashed panes, I pray you be spared the horror, the humiliation, the hell, that has long since become my very being. The Lord is merciful, and very present in my life nevertheless. This is why I never suffered real hunger or total death. I readily accept any vexation and trial, for it is known, that this is the world of rust and dust, where all comes to a most terrible end, despite the illusions and delusions of mankind. This is a place of fault, of imperfection, with its confines, restrictions and entropic nature. I would be a fool to expect any mercy or respite, for I too am flawed, and have seen what happens to the perfect, on a hill bearing the shape and name of nothing less than a skull. Such is the meaning of Golgotha, and all that came to pass there over the dusting bones of the very first man commonly named Adam. Hurry now, fear you be late for your banquets and merry making, for I have much to contemplate, and important work to do, before my withdrawals reach their peak and wipe me out for a good while. No pain no gain it is said. To that I raise my empty, broken glass, this Yuletide. Baron Ironblood The dark corner and side of FB youtu.be/E5E3roEW_NU
Posted on: Sat, 20 Dec 2014 17:30:47 +0000
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