The last track to post from the record Bitterseed is the song The Deserter. This song is the most emotional and personal to me on the record. This song began as tribute song for my grandmother who passed away. While writing just the first few lines I began to realize I had lost a connection with her. I hadnt seen her in over a year. It was my own fault. I had my chances to see/talk to her but I didnt take advantage of that. I began to sit back and think about the other people in my life. I had just moved out on my own for the first time and thought about the last time I had seen my mother, the last time I had spoke to my bestfriends. I lacked connection to people due to not putting in enough effort. I felt like I was deserting them like I had deserted my grandmother. Our time on this earth is very limited. Tomorrow could be the day we lose some one we love and hold close to our hearts. Ive learned moving forward that I want to keep that connection with people. Whether it be a simple text saying Hello, how are you? or a five minute phone call. Stay connected with the ones that you love. Lyrics: I never saw you. An empty vessel holds the pain I caused you I blame myself for these severed endings This has always been so difficult Every time you tried and every time I wouldnt. I couldnt change your fate, a gravestone marks that bed you made I wish I would have been more apart of your life. Now I understand why I never got to say good bye. Maybe Im just like my father, always detached from realities of life. Im losing sight of my family and the ones that I hold close to me. Who am I really now? Do I just do this to myself? Act all alone and betrayed Am I really alone or am I the deserter? Who am I really now? I think I found the answer. Im just a clouded head. With a great lack of rest. Im not really alone. Im not being betrayed This is who I really am. I am the deserter. I am the deserter. I am the deserter. youtu.be/b_4ydfDL-Rk
Posted on: Thu, 22 Jan 2015 22:56:12 +0000
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