They say one of the first steps to battleing Depression and Anxiety is to face it. Robin Williams never faced it. We hide it well with others and its something that never goes away for good its always there. Mine I combat via God and therapy. Im not crazy or insane. Some have it some dont. Mine was brought on by many things. The PTSD dosent help. But Im strong, my Mother has made me strong. Its a very complex disorder that affects everyone at some point. The difference is some have it forever and some only temporarily. God wont put on you what you cant take or handle. Ive always felt that theres been so much put on me and expected of me. And I have produced them well. I was once told that I was a Lost Soul i am actually a very complex person. I am different yet not in a bad way. I personaly feel Im a loving gentle man. I put others feelings above my own, I feel thats important yet I never do for me. Recently I learned from my soon to be Ex that she has a disorder that will require removal of her toes and quite possibly her foot. Despite what has transpired between she and I, I felt responsible for it as what could I have done to prevent it. The short answer is absolutely nothing. To me thats simply no option. But in reality what could I do or have done to prevent it? Again, nothing. So that is part of my disorder. Something I have to personaly work on. This thing Im writing is part of my therapy. Something Im supposed to do. Im not distressed, nor am I reaching out. Im simply sharing. People like Robin Williams were way worse than me. As suicide is often a part of our disorder it simply isnt in my case. I was raised to be strong and I am . I also know that in suicide you simply trade one hell for another. That is something I simply cannot do nor do I feel the need. Some do, and I stress this. IF YOU KNOW SOMEONE THAT IS SUICIDAL, REACH OUT TO THEM. The worst part is it is hard to spot. If someone you know is a self professed loner or sits alone at functions, sit with them. Another sign of depression is when someone is quick to anger over the smallest of things. Once somone knows they arent alone it gets better. When someone constantly worries, bills, health and status of loved ones, thats where it starts. If you feel these things please dont fall into the misconception that you arent normal. YOU ARE! If you feel like you are the one that holds things together in your family or your personal circle. Remember to take time for you. I am not ashamed of it. I have been used and used over and over again. My family is wonderful. Never an issue there. I may not be finacialy affluent or the most important man around but I am special. Im a good Dad and was a great husband, I simply gave all and recieved nothing from those marriages. My PTSD and Depression and Anxiety are well treated and I feel better everyday. But please dont view sufferers as lazy or wierd. It can happen to you. Evidently I have had it since I was a kid I just didnt know it. So in closing let me ask you all to find a local or national charity for the diagnosis and treatment of Clinical Depression and Axiety.
Posted on: Sat, 27 Dec 2014 20:52:40 +0000
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