To MY NENA………Dear Warrior Queen Sweet Butter....... “TRUE LOVE and The Moment of TRUTH”…….Of course I was happy to see you on Friday September 19, 2014 outside of Tiago’s........Yes, it was another perfect day for me.....Anytime I see you in person is a perfect day.......Yet, here I sit, still trying to figure out how to stay away from you.......When I saw you come out of Tiagos during the concert, all I could think about was how much I just wanted to go speak with you........Yet, I have to respect your wishes that I stay away from you......After seeing you build this wall around you for the last six years to keep me away.......I realize that I cannot do it anymore, it is just too much of a struggle....... As one of The Most Blessed Men or Earth I never knew struggle until 2008......Now I realize the only thing that I struggle with is having to stay away from the number #1 woman in my life.......Which has been you for over six years now........You have taught me how to deal and live with this struggle.......Now that I lost one of my best friends, my grandmother this month, I have a better understanding about struggle......In 2008 you re-directed my life.......I was going to Florida until I saw you at Club Sixx in 2008.....From that day until now I have been here in Connecticut just to be near you.....The Blessing for me was that I was able to take care of my grandmother for six years everyday..... I was able to see you sometimes and see my best friend, my grandmother everyday......That alone made it easier for me to stay away from you......Now that I do not have her anymore on this earth in the flesh.......I have to wait for a new best friend to see every day.......And since you do not want or need me in your life....... Like I want and need you in my life........ I have to be patient......And wait for my new blessing of another wonderful woman to come into to my life....... And be my new best friend......Yes, I have other best friends, yet I need a new best friend to replace my grandmother.... In a perfect world that woman would be you......Yet, you do not want me as your best friend and I understand.......I cannot wait for the new woman in my life......I want to thank you sincerely for re-directing my life......Even during this struggle to stay away from you……. The last six years has been such a wonderful experience.......I am now ready for the next phase in my life......I know you do not want me in your life and that is okay........ Because thanks to what I have learned from you, I can finally stay away without any regrets......I still LOVE YOU more and more every time I see you......I still want to be wherever you are ANYTIME.....ANYPLACE.....ANYWHERE.....Yet, I know that the only way that I will be able to stay away from you is if I do not see you.... Plus now I will only write you if I see you in person......I will not come to see you anymore......I will not go to any night clubs that you go to any more.......This is the day I have been avoiding since the first time I ever laid eyes on you.......I knew one day I would not be able to see you and stay away from you......I go hard for the woman that I want and LOVE......Yet, in your case I have had to stay in my own lane......I only gave 10% of my LOVE to you when I am used to giving 100% of my LOVE to the #1 woman in my life…. I learned No Limit LOVE from YOU, yet I have been limited by you for over 6 six years…….I have to practice NO Limit LOVE now and I cannot practice No Limit LOVE with YOU……… I have to wait until GOD blesses me with someone that I can practice No Limit LOVE with……Plus now that you have grown to be Queen Sweet Butter in my life, I can no longer give 10% of my LOVE to YOU…..If I cannot give 100% percent of my LOVE to YOU, I do not need to see you anymore…… Yes, I will miss you, yet I miss you every day already……..…Yet, it will be easier than struggling to stay away from you…..….LOVING YOU is so easy for me……... My TRUE LOVE for YOU is in my DNA……….Of course I will ALWAYS LOVE YOU, even if I cannot see you anymore……….Plus I have to start going out again just to stay modern and in touch……..I promise that I will make sure that I do not go to any of the night clubs……. That you go to……Plus this way you will not have to fight with me anymore……I LOVE YOU so much that I will do anything to make you happy……..I will LOVE YOU Forever because I will LOVE YOU forever…….Thank you I am forever grateful…….. https://youtube/watch?v=BxOjTTlu6Cc
Posted on: Fri, 21 Nov 2014 20:43:33 +0000
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