Today was for the most part a fun and eventful day. I got to help decorate for Christmas with Jenn and Alyx, I had a blast and it got me a little more in the Christmas spirit, but at the same time it killed me. Im not really one for Christmas, and I havent been for the past almost seven to eight years now. Growing up for as long as I can remember, Christmas has always been a big thing, filled with family and decorations. The video in the link is the house I use to live in growing up, we did the dancing lights, and oh how I just loved hearing Christmas carols blasting through the speakers out side my room(sarcasm, but as Ive gotten older I really do miss it a lot.) my mom Cindy and I along with my brothers Santo and Salvatore would always decorate the tree, it became our thing, and as my brothers got older it became me and my moms thing. Our Christmas would start at noon on Christmas Eve, at about noon when everyone from all over the place started to arrive with trays and trays of food, and wed eat all day, watch movies catch up with eachother over the past year or few weeks, whatever the time span was from the last time we saw them, and as the night grew darker we would get out the cards and dice, and play cards all through the night, I didnt know a lot of the games but I always loved watching. I remember there was this one night where I was watching my cousin Gerard play Texas holem and I was standing next to him trying to figure the game out, and when I walked away to stand by someone else hed lose his hand, but when I was next to him he would win, so I became his lucky charm for a while till the game switched, and I remember always admiring Christina , because she was always dressed so pretty and looked so nice, she never knew it till now, but I really looked up to her and wanted to be live her. But when all of the family traditions stopped for personal family reasons, I really stopped caring about getting into the spirit. But this past year Ive been working on getting it back, I really have. But I miss everything about the old things we use to do. It killed me that I woke up the other morning and my mom was almost done decorating the tree, without me, that was our thing, and now she was doing it on her own, but it is what it is. I really am blessed for everyone in my life, that Ive come in contact with because they in one way or another have changed it for better or worse. Im so thankful for my second family I have over at the Asylum, you guys really do mean the world to me and I thank you from the bottom of my heart for tolerating me. Im going to try and go to sleep now, Ive said enough here for this post. Thank you again, everyone thats ever been there for me and continues to be there for me, really, you dont know how much it truly means to me.💚💙💜youtu.be/bl-fe5alqEw
Posted on: Sat, 13 Dec 2014 03:39:37 +0000
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