Today was probably one of the most emotional days in a very long time here. I met with Jazmine and her Foster Mom to take Jazmine to her Forever home. When we arrived Jazmine had a Welcoming Committee. There was so much joy and anticipation for Jazmine to join the family. You could feel the love. I mean really feel the love. I walked through the introductions, shaking hands, as I looked up to the lady shaking my hand I said to her I know you, yes, I know you....from a lifetime ago. Do you remember me? You lived below me, yes? I had three children...I was in a Domestic Violence situation....you.. She answered Yes, we helped you.. now we are hugging....How are you and the kids? We left after you left.. How have you been? I answered Yes, yes you helped me! at which point tears and emotions just started to flow, tears and emotions I thought I had buried. I went on to tell her the kids were well, very well. Jazmine made herself at home as though she had been there all along. I could see Amber starting to break down as the time drew near. She loved her no doubt, as did Jazmine love her. Jazmines Adoptive Mom noticed the bond and said so to Amber with the greatest compassion to which Amber started to cry... Amber tragically lost her Mother to cancer over the Holidays and it has taken its toll on her. Amber replied this fighting back tears~ I love Jazmine. Jazmine was there for me at my worst moments when I would come home from the hospital after seeing my Mom and again after losing her. She was just always there for me in a way I can never repay. I am not what Jazmine needs right now. As hard as this is for me, I owe it to Jaz after what she has done for me to give her the very best she deserves. The raw emotion, oh my gosh, my heart so went out to this girl. I hugged her as she took Jazs leash off. I know Amber made the right choice for Jaz on her own. She made the most difficult choice from her heart. Jaz has fenced in acres to run, someone home with her to give her one on one all of the time. She will enjoy nature hikes at Bong recreation and she will go to church on Sundays. It just does not get better than that... well yes it does, she will continue her training with us and be back to class on Monday. Amber will still see her. As we walked outside Amber said to me she finally understood how hard it was for me to give up K9- Anya...but like Jaz with Amber, Anya was meant for someone other than myself. I asked Amber how long she needed before she would be ready to foster again. I would give her whatever she needed... I asked a month? She replied through tears, Um can you can give me a week? I love this girl with all of my heart, I do!
Posted on: Fri, 23 Jan 2015 03:26:01 +0000