Tomorrow night, on DirecTVs Audience Network, Channel 239, you can see me play a character named Keith on a new TV series entitled Kingdom. I auditioned for a different part initially. I auditioned for the role of a bully character and while I was happy with the performance, the casting directors mentioned, Oh, we thought maybe you were auditioning for Keith... That was the bullied character. I told them, Id really like to audition for THAT role. Because in truth, I am far more the bullied than the bully. Its always been the case. The read went well, and 2 days later, I got the part of Keith. While shooting, I had the privilege of making friends with incredibly sweet, talented people that I could tell actually cared about me in a real way. Not everybody does. I also got to flex my improvisation, and choices, as the directors, writers, and creator never got in my way with much of anything. There were some dark times, though. Youll see that the character has some comedic effect, but in truth, I was constantly going through thoughts I didnt want to have, images I didnt want to remember, and doing all manner of quiet torture to get to the place. Talking about acting grosses a lot of people out. But those that do it, or love it, or know it, know it can be a whole to do and its not always pleasant. I have felt so bullied in my daily life, lately. So much in my life has not gone the way I wanted, and the level of rejection that Ive had to stomach on a regular basis makes me feel PAST failure some days. It makes me feel not human. But this was a good opportunity. This was a character I felt for. And I love what I, and the MANY talented people involved, were able to accomplish. This show is not going to be pretty. Its going to be raw and unnerving and dark, and that includes me. Youre going to see me do or say things that may upset you. But know that REALITY is far more upsetting than playing dress up and pretending to be somebody else. Pretending to be somebody else? A gift I wish I got every day. So strap in. Kingdom is R rated. But so are the news headlines. So is the Bible. So is real life. And while this show strips down some harsh realities, it also celebrates love, passion, family and redemption. And you dont have to like the world of MMA to connect to those elements. So watch it, or dont. Judge it, or dont. But I am proud of it. And those that TRULY know me, will not care one bit. Theyre just happy to see my face. Know that I miss yours.
Posted on: Wed, 08 Oct 2014 03:09:12 +0000
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