UNKNOWEN There is an Unknowen force that drives us in a veriety of ways with mixed directions and outcomes, inconsistant with a force that drives us to our desired realitys. Are we ever on the right path. What seperates our reality from fiction. So there I was, Balls deep.Eye of the tiger.Teeth of the shark. Where was I... Who was I.. And what was I doing. Are we who we are meant to be, or set out to be. Or in some way do we evolve into our choises made along the way, adopting new versions of our selves, and is that what makes us who we are for the time being. If thats the case could we be a differnet person all together in days months or years. Not seeing it comming or notice the changes in our selves as the times change. This is the fore-shadows in which I had to write. I see... I can see off into the distance. Veiwing the horizon as the sun sets with clearity. I can see in the distance the path I wish to take and am memorizing it the best I can. But is it truly the the path I want or is it an elusion or marage off in the distance tricking me into options I have available down the road in the direction I visually desire. Unkowen to me is the obligations that come with those choises. How do we make choises. CHOISES You know you like something and your initial interests tell you to look into to it further. But how can you tell if our source of information isnt controlled and just given to us as a future gains promo a sterdie guideline unkowing of the hidden altimatems and insecuritys for future entangelment and implacement. Now drying out what was an ocean of potential is now a low level pool, a standard we had not considered having set for ourselves. This choise now pushing us further away from a path planned, for interests other then our own with minimal gain scavenged for by many. Do our interests matter. Should they. This is how I feel. All my life interested in being the few. In the few I mean the few to have done. Doing what has been done in this one time around life. To afect that what has changed in this world over the time Iv spent here, apart of it in some way and comming out with a standard I choise before going in. Is there a time line for change or do opertunitie knock finding yourself in one moment changed, looking back to agree or dissagree with your decision destination only later to see many made are unbreakable and irriversable once again altering your goals integrity. So how do you make arrangements for these situations in life to work out in your better interests, in the way it would lead to an unskaved horizion. For personal experience adaptability has always been apart of my methods. Being able to manuver through the fire and find your staging point to hold up in prerpareing for the next evelution in the journey. That has always worked for me, pushing a side anything off course to the end requirments outlined in my goals or makeing adjustments to alter what I wanted at the finish line with me. A take no prisoners policy. But I can tell you its not working as well as it sounds. Endless nights of reaccuring ideas and consepts being tossed around and conflicted with a consious self in agrence with myself. Ahh.. Its self. No exchange of fallow on advice or information adding to the ideologys drawn up in my struggel to stay aflote as the times and situations apear and disapear. And on my own for the company I never keep wasnt there. funny thing is the horizon is always twice what your can see. In account the world is round and your only seeing the ratius of swelling waves between you and your goals. QUESTIONS So options. These are fall backs on your consious self in agrence with any idea passed through its intricket channels in order to disrupt the cycle of positive gain followed by a lerking showdow of doubt while yourself still feels the need to agree with all prospects for personal satisfaction. Your lieing to yourself to keep the dream alive. As I stand infornt of a mirror the man before me, calls me crazy. So with that in mind how do you fight back and make sound judgement. You need to ask your self questions that you dont want to hear allowing feelings toward self criticisem to find the real truth only then can you really see the path right for you and not pieces of those used around you collaged together in the attempt to create one for yourself. Ask. Who am I. What do I want. Whats the best and worst out come. How long do I want it to last. How far will I go for it. Fallow on questions can be looked into or pushed for once you figure out Who you are. Who are you... Wel... Im me.. I know me. Do you anymore.. Is this what you wanted. Is this what you asked for.. What have you done and what havent you done that you would have or should have. Realisticly should anyone be able to hold you back from your goals and interest. And what if they did, would you accept change, always to look back and hold a sence regret or disregard towards that choise or chooser who help mold the idea in your mind before moveing on to their goals. Will you ever really move on from yours. Do new goals come into play. Can your current or past goals change completely enough to become none existant or just empty voids as a reminder something was there once and with that coin tossed will something always be missing. Are you suppose to roll over and accept and forget. Or Do you take a stand and pave the rest of the way to the finish line you once held dear to heart accepting all comers and allowing off going pasengers to make their way from the track. Should they matter, even if they do on all other accounts. At what point do their interests change your destination and where do you stop. Understanding you move on and they move in and others push to join your conquests aswell. But your choise to fallow them takes you down another path ventureing off to support a crusade for another. At what point does the crusade end for you. Finding yourself taveling across open country defenceless to allyour paths dangers as they wernt planning for your goals, these are the very dangers you never took in account while you were clearing the land mines for some one else those days months and years before. Have you just added years to your dreams. Will you ever recover or have you perminitly moved on now. HARSH Have you moved on and just wont accept it. Do you even know. It isnt about you knows, because you obviously dont at this point. Step out of your box and look in, not on your succeses but your failures these tell the tale better then you ever could. This isnt about the normalidies fed to us in the 21st century that are misconscrewed and accepted as a standard of living from the majority of the masses. A very faulse hope with a very real very destructive disarmorment of all that you are. Substadizing your life and the way you have always seen it for a piece of mass media normalidie. These traps are set by few for the masses, the Commoners. This is about the commoners and your involvments. Be watchful for these commoners... this commoner force has pushed its way so deep into our lives that it has infected those around us creating new pockets of devistation, diverting you from your preasent quest for self recognition, waiting for you to get drugg on in with every new face you meet and ever old face that falls in with those that couldnt hold on to their own dreams. Like voltures feeding off the positives you have left that might just be enough to get you back on track. Soon there wont have enough and youl find yourself, searching the waistland for a dream of your own. The letter I much resembles the number 1 If your not #1 itl only take one to bring you down. DECISION So whats your decision... Whats going to be the out come for your self and your surroundings.What do you do. Just go for it and figure the rest in the next round as the so called game is played. Dwelling in anothers dream planning out both what you know and feel while drifting behind as you follow the lead of fallen prophets around you insureing not to drink from the same golden chales. Can you resist. Firmly holding on to the dreams that one day youl be able to tear away from the system and get back on the path you started so long ago. Or Do you start now and let loose the shackels of majority rules and set the standard sooner then later understading there is no time but now and unregimented dicisions made outside of the desired end create uncontrollable rifts through time impeading the once lite path, that from a distant view was so easy to fallow. Leaving those who cant stay on board any longer go their own path. Understanding failure but knowing it will only lead to success in piece of mind for years to come and years to look back on. IN THE END In the end you lived and you die where you go from there is your own to believe. But on your dieing day, your lifes story will be told and how it flashes by is made by you and the decisions made before casting away that first stone. or recognizing the errors in time the rippels have made and tossing in another before time ticks past too late. I dont know who I am any more but I know what it is I want. Now I have to figure out how important it is to me.
Posted on: Mon, 07 Jul 2014 10:21:29 +0000
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