...Waking up this morning has been hard...my heart aches, my brain hurts & all I keep thinking is why? This year has been so tough for me, with the worries of my unborn son, to the worries of my fiancés father, to now the loss of my grandmother. I never thought Id be going to a funeral while I was pregnant, I keep thinking that this is just a surreal feeling & that Im going to wake up & that everything is going to be fine. Going through spurts of extreme sadness & then happiness as I reminisce about moments and conversations Ive had with my beloved grandma. God took her home Sunday evening, and although Im happy because I know where she is, Im sad and angry because I feel she wasnt ready...or maybe in more selfish terms it was I who wasnt ready, Im just not ready for this! Her leaving this earth came as a total shock to my entire family. Grandma Harriett McDonald was literally the light of many peoples lives, family or not, you felt her love. She was the MOST giving, loving, intelligent, warm, happy, cuddly, special woman that I knew. She loved her family so very much and was the heart of every holiday, especially Christmas...yes she was definitely the meaning/foundation of every Christmas Eve. I just want her back, she was supposed to meet my son, she was supposed to see me get married, she was supposed to be around for many just many more things, and although I know she will be with us in spirit...I simply cant help but just want her physically here, right now, forever...God literally gained one of the most beautiful angels & the only comfort I have, is knowing she will always be watching over us. Her memory will forever and ever live on through the lives shes touched. Rest in beautiful paradise Grandma, we LOVE you so very much! Ill hold you in my heart, until I can hold you again in heaven...
Posted on: Tue, 25 Mar 2014 17:47:37 +0000
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