Well...I just took my meds. Anything can happen after you do that. Boy do I hate sleeping. Even worst I hate taking something that makes me go to sleep. Im trying to tell myself, as usual, that this is the solution to the problem. Why does my brain always want to go against the grain? My brain does, says, thinks what it wants and I have no way of controlling it until I take my meds and that sometimes doesnt even work. Its like cancer spreading throughout the body...its nearly impossible to stop it from spreading. Well, its nearly impossible to stop the voices, hallucinations, AND its impossible not to believe that every bit of it is true to the bone. I am thinking, not only is the brain chemically imbalanced, but it may also be missing chromosomes. This is what I believe. As I read more and more about schizophrenia, I am realizing that insomnia is a major symptom. With me, I feel that if I am asleep, thats the perfect time for the voices, whomever they belong to, to attach me and do what they repeatedly tell me in horrific detail about what is going to happen. Over & over this happens, yet my brain forces me to believe it all until the episode is over. Is there a medicine out there that could help the brain understand distinguish whats real and whats not? My friends, looks like its about that time to trust and have all faith in my creator that when I lay my head to rest, hell protect me as he has done thus far and give me another chance to open my eyes to live another day to the fullest. Good Night World!!! ~Roberta~
Posted on: Sun, 20 Oct 2013 08:30:30 +0000
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