When I first created this page and wrote the about section, it said something to the effect that I went on a diet because I was so fat I couldnt stand to look at myself. I know now that cant be true. I know now I would still be yo-yo dieting if I actually felt that way. A number of things lead up to my last attempt to lose weight: a high school reunion I didnt attend, an old friends funeral I did attend, the impending 10th anniversary of my moms death and the fact I was setting a record on how long it had been since I last tried (about two years.) When I set out to get healthy, I still equated losing weight with being healthy *sigh*. So, I did the same thing I always had before, because it was all I ever knew (counting points/calories.) But, I also knew early on something was different this time, I just didnt know what. Now, I do. The fact is, I didnt go on a diet because I was fat. Instead, I decided to make a real change in my life because Im worth it. I realized how lucky I am to have a lot of people in my life who love me and always have. When I looked in the mirror, I began to let myself see myself through their eyes. That is where it *really* all started. It had nothing to do with my weight. It had everything to do with me accepting myself just the way I was/am. And, it had to do with loving myself unconditionally, regardless of my size. Once that happened, it was only natural to want to take better care of myself by eating healthier and being more active. I stopped feeling sorry for myself for having endured many losses over the years. I let go of the guilt I was (unknowingly) carrying for still having a life, when my mothers was suddenly cut short. I let go of the anger of losing my very best friend in the package. Yeah, my body got smaller in the process, but this journey has been the furthest thing from a diet ever!. Its been an eye-opening, life-changing adventure. I changed the name of my page to reflect this. What do you think?
Posted on: Tue, 05 Nov 2013 20:12:27 +0000
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