Why Anxiety Can make you more prone to Dis-ease Fear is one of our guides, it allows us to take a check in on our path and make sure we are still in tune with who we are and what works for us. It can be seen as a positive thing. However fear is also powerful to our health when we allow it to become more than a fleeting thought and many people live their lives coming from a place of fear all the time. Fear of being judged, fear of being rejected and sometimes simply fear of doing something that will make our lives more difficult than it already is. For some life appears to be a struggle on a daily basis. But strangely this fear is what sometimes can set you free as well. As always I have a story which is a lesson I have learnt in my own life that has taught me why I think this. I have many but for today it is this one. The day before my wedding I had, as is tradition, a meal with my family and closest friends, it was the first time my family had been together since my parents divorced when I was 14, I was 26. The whole preparations of my wedding had been stressful , I had organised it single handedly and I had spent a fortune creating ‘my dream wedding’. During the course of the meal I felt my throat swell and eventually I had an anaphylactic shock and was rushed into hospital and there I stayed until about 4am having adrenalin pumped into me. At the time I was asthmatic so breathing problems was something I was very conscious of and whilst it was alarming I thought I handled it relatively well. What I would learn later in my life I would reflect slightly differently ! At one point I was asked did I feel I could go through with my wedding the following day. I assumed the question was in relation to did I feel well enough to go through with the day not did I want to go through with the wedding. I naturally replied of course, I will be fine. I was released about half an hour later and I cruised through my wedding pretty high on adrenalin and did not crash until I was safely on my honeymoon ( at which point I cracked a disc in my spine but that’s another story! ). I was told that I must have had an allergic reaction to some anchovies in my meal and I then spent 16 years avoiding anchovies like the plague. No surprise now but I was not allergic to anchovies, I had a massive panic attack – but it took me nearly 16 years to work this out and I was never given any reason to think it was not the anchovies until I started my own discovery of me. Now if you had suggested to me or anyone else that I was an anxious person at that point – you would have been laughed out of the room. I had left home at 19, survived being made redundant twice by 23, travelled the world implementing computer systems and was at that point running the software house I had implementing systems for. Anxious – not something that would have sprung to mind – Had someone asked me tho – I would have said yes. Yes I was anxious my soon to be husband would’nt always love me, yes I was anxious he would do the same things my father had done. Anxious that my parents would manage to get through the day ok, anxious that people would enjoy the day I had put together and that they would judge me on the decisions I had taken about what was my dream wedding. Anxious that I would look ok, Anxious that everyone would have a awesome day to remember. Yes I could tick all those boxes with bells on. No wonder I had a panic attack – I’m a normal human being - but nobody asked me that. It was much better for me to spend 16 years thinking I was allergic to anchovies ! Looking back now, it would have been understandable for someone to get a bit of the pre-wedding nerves in any event but with my family history it was hardly surprising mine were slightly greater than normal. I say this all tongue in cheek now and laugh at the memory but hindsight is such a powerful thing. Fear is given to us for a reason – to face our inner thoughts and learn from them and do the right thing for us. It is a healthy thing providing we put to good use and we don’t allow fear to become an emotion. It is intended to be our guide. You see, I was terrified of getting married and for very good reasons but I had not given myself the ability to face my fears and allow them to be rationalised and let go of. Instead my fear remained inside of me and I allowed it to fester. Eventually I unravelled my fears and I also let go of all the anxiety I had stored inside but it was not pain free and it was not without me causing significant ‘dis-ease’ in my body. I have no regrets because it has lead me on this path and I have been given the incredible opportunity to change patterns and change my children’s futures. Something I am eternally grateful for. I am also given the opportunity to possibly help others change patterns, futures and maybe even health issues. One of the most important things I have learnt tho is that fear is a self –fulfilling prophecy and unless we face them and let them go for what they are ‘ just a thought’ we are opening our body and our minds to dis-ease. You see when we let our fears become strong emotions they both have a habit of coming true and if we ignore them they become ‘dis-ease’ inside our bodies that will eventually find a way of seeping out into your worlds. Anxiety is the route of most ‘dis-ease’ and we can stop this by becoming wise and strong. It wont stop everything but we will learn to be free by being responsible for our own thoughts and emotions and allowing ourselves to be human !
Posted on: Wed, 03 Sep 2014 09:12:06 +0000
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