With all the changes thats happened in the last year of my life I - TopicsExpress



          

With all the changes thats happened in the last year of my life I have come to realise that Tamara has been pushed into the closet. Lost but not forgotten. Ive been so busy trying to be a wife and mother that I forgot about myself. I am and have always been a woman with goals and ambitions. I never tolerated bullshit and never had a problem with eliminating those who brought it into my life. Yes I have a past, but it does not haunt me. The future I envisioned for myself was, is, and always will be bright. If Ive learned anything in this past year its that there is nothing wrong with a little me time. It does not make me a bad mother or wife, in fact I believe any woman who can admit out loud that she needs a break is an amazing HUMAN BEING for having the courage it takes to admit that. It has also been brought to my attention that not everyone is like the family I grew up in. Even though the same blood doesnt run through all our veins weve never looked at each other any less then family. Tonight I came to the realization that being me..a wife, mother, woman, and human being.. should be enough for everyone I come into contact with. And if it is not then please just walk away. Its time to get back to being Tamara, as well as a wife and mother. My last name may of changed but that doesnt change the person I have been for the last 21 years. Starting tomorrow I make a promise to myself that I will get back to being me. To not only provide care for and love my son and husband but also for myself. No longer will I allow someone to make me feel less then or unwelcomed. If you can not for whatever reason accept me for who I am then I can no longer accept you as part of my life. No more being pushed aside..no more feeling as if I dont belong. I may now be a Reyes, but I will forever be a Howell. I can only be who I am, I will never pretend to be someone I am not. And I will no longer try to build relationships with people who choose not to do the same. Whoever stuck through and read this super long rant...much love. Lol
Posted on: Wed, 23 Oct 2013 03:55:36 +0000

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