Wow, what a weekend! Growing up in a Christian home, I have always known the right things to do in my walk with God: I accepted him into my heart at church camp, was first baptized at a later church camp, and know all the lines to say. But when I came to college, I knew that I really wanted to make my faith my own; something that was truly important to me in my heart, not just in my head. Since starting college, little by little I’ve been making heart changes that have brought me closer to God each year. So far, though, everything has been pretty manageable on my own. But this year, with a heavy class load and the pressure from myself to do better and more than ever before, something has been weighing heavy on my heart. I’ve really been struggling with understanding how to give it all to God, how to let him take control and just let me live in the life He’s planned for me. I’ve been trying to be a ‘superwoman’ of sorts, not letting anything stop me and believing I can do it all by myself. But I know that’s not how it works. I know that I need God helping me every step of the way, everyday, and that’s just it... I know it - it’s just head knowledge. This weight on my heart, though, has been a heart change. It’s been a true desire to let go and let God. This weekend at church, that’s just what I did. At the end of the service, there was an open invitation for whoever felt called to baptism. At first I tried to hold myself back, thinking that this wasnt for me because Ive already been baptized, but I have never felt God speak more clearly. My heart was pounding and I knew that I was supposed to be up there, burying the old me, and raising up this new life, a life that wants to be used by God and that lets God take the reigns. So I went! I am so thankful for all who have been mentors in my life along the way--my loving parents, John Koch and Joy Koch, who have provided me such great Christian examples and who I was so glad to get to have there with me on Sunday, Julie Gillespie, who has been an amazing mentor to me here at MSU, and so many more both at home and here at school who continually challenge me in my faith. As our walks of faith never truly reach a finish line, one of the verses that is really guiding my walk right now is 2 Corinthians 12:9 -- “ But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.”
Posted on: Tue, 07 Oct 2014 01:28:49 +0000
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