Yesterday was one month since my baby Caden went to Heaven. How the time flies, yet it also feels like yesterday when it all happened. And it happened So fast. One day we were playing and enjoying the time we had, the next we were told that your cancer had progressed ad chemo would only give you maybe a few more weeks, so we opted out and decided to enjoy every minute. Just two short weeks later you were laying in my bed, waving to the angels on the deck. We were all convinced he could see them, the way he would look past us out the window and deliberately wave. I miss him so much but am happy with the decisions we made, letting him make his trip to heaven pain free. We were blessed with more days than we expected-but every day I wish I had just one more. Alli and Breck are doing ok, and dad is hanging in. Everyday is a struggle but I am able to see some memories and smile, although most make me cry. I think about how silly you were singing pat a cake, yelling "throw it away" long before it was time-throwing your good arm high into the air. And how you would play with my hair when it was Wet, you though it was so silly. I love you Caden, and I am so grateful for the memories I get to keep. Sending you all my love
Posted on: Wed, 31 Jul 2013 02:45:12 +0000