You dont think youll live past it and you dont really...The person you were is gone, but the half of you thats still alive wakes up one day and takes over again. - Barbara Kingsolver I stole this quote from a moms wall who also had to say goodbye to her little boy shortly after he was born. Feeling the absence of my baby something fierce today. Happy 2 month Birthday to my sweet Evans, missing you extra tonight, baby boy! Earlier the kids were in my office and wanted to watch some video clips of when they were babies. Watching Harper hold and shush Ellington as a newborn broke my heart; I was so looking forward to Ellingtons relationship w/ Evans. I hate this journey! The end of summer has been so difficult- not that I wanted it to last any longer, as its definitely been the worst in our books- I wasnt supposed to be taking a Kindergartener to school w/ out worrying about his new baby siblings schedule. I hate this unexpected freedom. I wish my sleepless nights were due to having to be up nursing a baby, not waking up to the ache of missing his coos and cries. Jesus is near and Hes faithful, but sometimes my head gets that more than my heart. Glad that my feelings arent facts, and that Jesus walks me through the lowest of lows and the highest of highs... Choosing to trust and praise Him because I know Hes redeeming and restoring and using this. Thankful more than ever for the precious 2 I get to raise this side of heaven and the best husband to lean on through it all. {Photo Credit- nhancephotography}
Posted on: Fri, 15 Aug 2014 02:27:50 +0000
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