You know the big bad flaw about emotions? They try to boss you around like youre some kinda first grade kindergarten kid who needs to do just what papa or mama said or something BAAAAD will happen. Im sick of these bullies. Ive had it with them. Stupid emotions, you think you got it huh? You think you know where the energy tap is on me so you can let it drip all day so I get drained? Yeah right, you TRY! I know you believe you got me but no, wait and see. Boohoo I feel tired. I feel exhausted. I dont want to climb the stairs to the apartment. I drag my feet and the curb side is too high, I wanna roll over like a slimy worm. Couch looks soft and comfy, its calling my name. And yeah I do hear it. I do hear the voice loud and clear : WHERE ARE THE CARBS? you KNOW they make you HAPPY! What the heck is that SHIT? Its not like Im gonna surrender! Hey, you think I dont KNOW you by now you stupid emotions? You hover around waiting for the perfect opportunity to stab my in my back when Im already on the low down! But Im watching you. Fatigue is nothing dangerous. Its natural. So, dont try to make me panic. I do feel like I will never rise from paralysis, but this aint the first time I feel like a walking zombie. My brain is preserving energy, it tries to slow me down. Shit happens some days. Some days you are not yourself. But why make such a big baby out of it? Im not a machine. But I do know how to control my emotions. I acknowledge them, yet they do not run my office! I do. I do. I do. I get so PISSED. Because I KNOW its all in my mind. I let myself get worn out, I did not prevent fast enough. I should have seen it coming but I chose to be blind. Stupid me. I learn though. Its always easier to surrender and be a little weakling complaining about no energy. yeah yeah yeah, oh you feel tiiiiired. You have no energy.so sad huh! You think you are the only one..... Sorry babe, you got it all wrong. We are all in the same boat. You want energy? from morning til night? And be shredded too? And buff? HA! yeah good luck. It does not always FEEL as GOOD as it LOOKS, you got to remind yourself about reality. Why do you think so few ARE in incredible shape most of the time? BECAUSE it takes WORK. Not only gym time but mental time. You need to go to therapy with yourself! Daily sometimes. You are asking of your body to do more than you give it credit or energy for. You must understand and accept that the energy you WANT is in your fat cells and one way to get it out and the only one is to USE it instead of putting more in! I work on my MIND as hard as my Body. If not harder. Its TOUGH to be a super woman! But if you want to be it you got to live it and practice it. I dont want to be a coward. I feel embarrassed when I am tired because I know that if someone came up to me told me I just won a million dollars for real Id be running miles without stopping out of excitement. So there is way more energy in you, you just need to know what keys to open them up. its a MENTAL GAME. Its CALLED LYING to yourself. Its POSITIVE self-denial. You must use it. Abuse it. Suck it up. Let me comfort you with one true statement: if you have energy 100% of the time and no low time you are on not human! fighterdiet
Posted on: Thu, 27 Nov 2014 23:46:22 +0000
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