as we were talking outside it was cold we were shivering yet warmed by the subject matter my wife is in the next room weve been having troubles you know please dont tell her or anyone but I need to talk to somebody you said wouldnt it be a shame if I knew how great I was five minutes before I died Id be filled with such regret before I took my last breath and I said youre willing to tell me this now and youre not going to die anytime soon and I said I havent been eating chicken or meat or anything and you said yes, but youve been wearing leather and laughed and said were at the top of the food chain, yes, youre still a fine woman and I cringed I was hoping I was hoping we could heal each other I was hoping I was hoping we could be raw together we left the restaurant where the head waiter (in his 60s) said good-bye sir thank you for your business sir youre successful and established sir and we like the frequency with which you dine here sir and your money and when I walked by they said thank you too dear I was all pigtails and cords and there was a day when i wouldve said something like hey dude i could buy and sell this place so kiss it I too once thought I was owed something I was hoping I was hoping we could challenge each other I was hoping I was hoping we could crack each other up I too thought that when proved wrong I lost somehow and I too once thought life was cruel its a cycle really you think Im withdrawing and guilt tripping you I think youre insensitive and i dont feel heard and i said do you believe we are fundamentally judgemental? fundamentally evil? and you said yes I said I dont believe in revenge in right or wrong good or bad you said well what about the man that I saw handcuffed in the emergency room bleeding after beating his kid and she threw a shoe at his head and I think what he did was wrong and I wouldve had a hard time feeling compassion for him I had to watch my tone for fear of having you feel judged I was hoping I was hoping we could dance together I was hoping I was hoping we could be creamy together
Posted on: Sun, 04 Jan 2015 20:50:56 +0000