awareness. There is an undercurrent of awareness to my thoughts, emotions, experiences, senses and my eye sight. I feel like i am able to see my thoughts and emotions before they happen - not as they happen or already happened. I know most people have a hard time being the watcher of their stuff and living experiences and phenomenon. I can only say that being trapped in your flowing of thoughts and emotions is a sad experience and when you die, you may not even remember this life or any of its past history. But i am learning that having an undercurrent of awareness means that i am watching my self think and talk and feel and experience. I guess i am my thoughts, but only partially. I think something with my mind, but i see my thoughts as a thing i descend into. I guess i am having trouble explain my awareness. My awareness is different then my thoughts. There is awareness and thought. I am partially my thoughts but i am also the one who sees my thoughts, i dont just claim my thoughts as my self. The higher self is behind the thoughts. I can feel emotions too consciously. LIke when ever i feel anger... i can feel it raise to my head from my body and unless i hold the anger in my sight. (seeing it) i know it will soon possess me and start controlling what kinds of thoughts ill be producing. This awareness is freedom from being a zombie and a sheep to my mind and body. Before my mom past away, i just believe my thoughts were my self. Yes my thoughts are partially mine. But i learned to be the watching perception behind my thoughts and become more in control of what i do with my actions. There is a rising awareness that has become willfully stronger behind my thoughts and i am it. This is my description of being awake. YOu can clearly be your thoughts and also be the awareness of the thought at the same time. And you choose not to invest so much of your self into your thoughts because then you lose connection with your self, and you tend to be in a dream like lucid state of existing. SO in short, i hope people learn from this that there is an experience that goes beyond just being simply your thoughts. There is your self, and your thoughts.
Posted on: Fri, 12 Dec 2014 07:04:13 +0000
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