for those who dont know and for those who do, tomorrow it will be 1 year since I seen Wylie... shout out to the ones who spent endless time with me at my absolute worst & most darkest days of my life having to deal with me which wasnt easy at all... Coty Heidelberg thank you for the shoulder the day I just knew it was Wylies body they had found 1/2 mile from home and dealing with me at work the best you could and the prayers... you were only 22 years old and I know it was hard for you to have to see me tearly eyed trying to hold myself together... Dina Sprague Ament thank you for staying the night that first day when I found out and going to the bayou that day when I was a complete basket case/crazy person... Janice Swartz Gibbs the endless Fridays and weekends you spent with me here at my house trying to help me find out what happened... Leah Salvagio having to listen to me all the time going back and forth, up and down... Tage Badipour & Justin Keith for spending nights with me and holding me up while I slowly thought I would lose my mind and felt completely broken, Justin I am sorry for the pain I put you through my son and I am so sorry I put you through so much I know how it devastated you to see your mother completely broken, I seen the pain and the tears in your eyes and I love you for all you did never forget that & for Shanna Keith my daughter in law who is also and has been going through such a tremendous amount but always listened to me regardless and still put up with me and loved me... Laurie Monterrubio for the phone conversations and the shoulder I needed and putting up with me... Michelle Donath for all the emails checking on me at work to see if I was alright and talking to me because you have been there and done that and you understood my grief and my crazies when I couldnt wrap my head around any of it... there are many others Donald E Welsh thank you for the phone talks and the emails to check on me... I appreciate that more then I can possibly put into words... Brandy Mehl for talking to me both at my house, on the phone or a simple message... it meant alot... I think I am finally making it to the other side of peace and acceptance and we all know how hard that is for me because I am driven for answers we may never have but finally finding a little bit of peace none the less... Wylie was in active addiction at the time he died... we will never know if he hurt himself or it was an accident... I tried to fix it... FYI you cant... for those that dont know I do spend time online with others that are addicts and if my story helps just 1 person, than I am blessed... just 1... I also am finding out which has been a good thing I couldnt fix It even though Wylie told me that a million times right along with its not your fault Im an addict... I blamed me... I blamed myself for getting pissed off and saying something... he never held that against me... he always understood and spent his time trying to help me get rid of the guilt & loved me unconditionally... I want people to understand, addicts do dumb stuff but they arent the worse of the worse people on earth... Frankly most of them are broken people who need a hand or got caught up in the party not realizing the downhill spiral their lives would take... what I mean is just to listening helps... it could be your loved one... so be kind... you never know when the last time may be... and if youre the loved one of an addict there are lots of sites on facebook that you can tell your story and many addict actually appreciate it it because they are in recovery and they are hearing the story from someone other than their family... its the same story just a different person telling it... I have done so much reading, and found so many that said the same things to me that Wylie said... seems crazy but its the truth... and through some of the stories that I have read right along with good friends, that has helped me tremendously... I just didnt realize it... well peeps thats my story... I hope some will take something with them as they read... But know that I am finally seeing some light... Thanks a bunch all!!! xoxoxo
Posted on: Mon, 08 Sep 2014 22:24:59 +0000
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