i honestly dont think that ill ever be able to fully accept that youre really gone Eric Haiar. i feel like a piece of my heart has been ripped out of my chest and i am completely, utterly lost. there is just so much that i wish we could have changed, so many words left unsaid that we both needed to hear and i hate myself for thinking that wed always have the time, always have the chance to say to one another. and i am so so sorry that i cant change that because id give anything to and regret it with all my heart each day. i cant help but thinking back how 4yrs can go by so fast, and how so much has changed. through all the good and the bad, our public/private lives, there are so many memories that ill cherish in my heart forever and a place in my heart that can never be replaced. im crushed that your dreams were stolen from you and to know that you meant so much to so many people, they are hurting at this loss. i wish so badly that i could take away everyones pain and sorrow but i cant. i can only try to be there, to be strong and to let those know that they arent alone in this grief. i know how much you hated to see me cry so ill keep trying my best to remember to breathe through the stabbing pain each breath brings and to understand that its going to hurt worse before it gets better but with time, the heartache will ease. we just have to remember to stay strong and to try to fight through it day by day. i love you all and please please stay strong. -B you asked me not to long ago if i regretted our tattoo and i still dont, not at all. -habuisti me ad salve, semper aeternum- you had me at hello, always&forever -adtr i hope that your dreams are coming true in heaven and i know youve missed Dev and happy you have each other again. ill always love you and i miss you so much Eric
Posted on: Tue, 16 Dec 2014 05:10:41 +0000