oct 16, 2014 words of life in time of sickness another testimony of grace: how i can smile even when i face my one last breath Last tuesday, i was at SM when my vision went black and i nearly collapsed. thank God, that time it happened the escalator had reached the 2nd floor and i still managed to go to a seat nearby. then i just closed my eyes. i was still conscious when the employee who first saw me asked the security guard to bring me to the department store clinic. i was wheel-chaired, it seemed a long way amongst a crowd but my eyes remained closed. then i found myself assisted by a nurse, inhaled the relieving white flower, given a drink, assisted to a bed, and there tears fell from my eyes. before going to the city, i asked vaks to go with me, but no. i forgot that from office upon completing the resolutions, and earning permission from my boss, i rushed to do my businesses without having any meal since morning, other than coffee. my blood sugar dropped maybe, my blood pressure dropped as checked by the nurse, my fingers got numb, and i was feeling cold, it was my first time to experience such, without anyone with me. tears fell as i was laid down on bed, just thanking and uttering how good God is. for if the incident happened when i was walking by the highway, or some other strangers saw me collapse, what worse could have happened? did i forget to say that i had with me some cash that time, to be used to fulfill my fathers desire to buy a memorial lot, where the bones of Mama and my baby brother could be transferred. the weakness continued to yesterday till today. maybe, i really neglected to take care of my meals, and my physical wellness. ive been dizzy, suffering lbm and blowing and to face the computer like this adds pain on my back and to the dizziness. but i just know i have to write this down, at least this one, perhaps to remind: dont forget your meals, always pray, and.... if you think youre going alone, it is when God will be the one to accompany you. yes, it was God or his angels who brought me to that exact place where i nearly collapsed. He provided for all my needs even when i was alone. He arranged everything to cover me even when i was nearly unconscious. He protected not only me but also the fulfillment of my fathers desire. His presence was magnified thru the SM staff who helped me. He comforted me by seeing pastors family where i finally had my meal, and in the company of cheerful passengers in a van home, even when we had to wait one more hour or so. God is alive. Hes there with you everywhere you go. He lifts you up when you fall down. He sends his angels for you. He is God. He embraces. He loves you more than youll ever know, and even when all else had deserted you (the way i felt when vaks wouldnt go with me and now that he couldnt be with me while im sick), God takes care of you. this is my testimony of grace. another grace. i may be weak now, and alone in my sickness, but Im filled with joy because God is with me. last night when i thought, what if i am being called to go already?... ill just be at peace. my father will be fulfilling his desires, my sister is happy, i have forgiven, been forgiven, and i have loved. my children and family will not worry financially because they have seen that God always provides. if its my one last breath, i wouldnt contest, because even before i was born the day of my death is already written, and ill simply smile. but I smiled, and prayed to God, because You are still impressing desires in my heart, I believe that there are many more good days to see. and i just want to express my praises to God thru this. both the healthy and sick days now turn to good days. for I have come to know my Savior, my God, and i have come to see one more time, that He is with us to the end of the age. May His presence be also magnified in your lives....God bless you. THANKS TO SM CITY TARLAC DEPT STORE. I ALWAYS LOVED YOU SM. THANK YOU MR HENRY SY FOR SM.
Posted on: Thu, 16 Oct 2014 01:59:09 +0000