Addicted to the lifestyle ...... I remember so many times trying to get clean but the lifestyle alone would pull me back. $$ that i had but never anything ever to show for it, the so called back biting friends. Even the friends i actually really liked. The fast pace. ALWAYS followed by the hellish withdrawals, sick to my stomach, fever like symptoms, couldnt eat or drink, slept for days with the phone by my side waiting for the call that It is in, sometimes the wait was for weeks. Getting clean was the toughest thing i have ever done in my life ... but i changed the people... the places ... and the things... and that is what worked well. Out with the bad in with the good. The new friends, i went to positive places, like meetings, churches, Etc, and that seemed to change the things I did.. and i did it with all the free time i had. I didnt want dead time... because dead time was time in my messed up head. I had to stay busy.. yeah the old lifestyle was addictive! But the life i live today.. so pleasurable, joyful, serene and it doesnt cost me a penny. Just effort! By Paul, Breaking Chains: Chronicles of a Meth Addict
Posted on: Tue, 15 Oct 2013 23:04:42 +0000
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