All day today I have been trying to find the right words. Anyone who knows me knows that I dont usually have a hard time speaking my mind...it comes 2nd nature, however, today is a little different. I cant promise that I ended up finding those words but Ill speak from the heart!! Today is the 41st birthday of one of my favorite people in the world. Today my heart aches that I cant spend this day with him sharing memories and celebrating like brothers and sisters are suppose to do. Instead I sit here, fighting the feeling of hatred, I wonder how some people can look in the mirror everyday knowing all the lies they told and all the vindictive things they did to ruin a family, to ruin a life of someone who did so much for them just to satisfy their own evil gratification. Here are the words I came up with... My mind tells me to hate these people, but my heart knows its the wrong thing to do. I struggle to decide which one to listen to. When I think about all the evil things I could say, I instead have decided to pray. For you, Im having a rootbeer tonight, Since I cant hug you tight!! With that being said I have decided that I will pray for them, pray that they can be forgiven (not by me, Im not ready), pray that they can forgive themselves and someday speak the truth!! To my awesome brother Trevor, I love you and I know your going to be proud of me no matter what as I am proud to call you my brother!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
Posted on: Tue, 07 Oct 2014 02:18:50 +0000
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