FRIDAY CONFESSION. I’ve been a little angry about some things. Angry that someone has been unfair and they seemed to have reaped the benefits of causing an unfortunate circumstance for me; all because they don’t understand my desire to do the thing that drives me—write novels that heal my soul, and in turn help others—entertain them, challenge them, inspire them. All because not conforming to a mentality where there is one source for my prosperity messed with them in some small way. And they decided to make it their mission to make me pay. And because I’m in a different mindset—a forgiving mindset, I couldn’t react the way a sister raised on the South Side of Chicago normally would Yesterday, for the first time in a long time, I took out my affirmations and revamped them to fit my current needs. Yesterday, I took out my budget and reconditioned them to continue to be in line with becoming debt free. Yesterday, I edited chapters for one of my clients and returned them and had a discussion about plotting and direction. Yesterday, I revised my new novel, Rich Woman’s Fetish, so that it can go to the manuscript evaluator on time for an April release. Yesterday, I shared laughs with, and also had an awesome conversation with my number one son telling him of what I’d done. He asked me to send him the budget spreadsheet so he can do one of his own. Yesterday, I actually adhered to my son’s words of wisdom of turning off my iPad an hour before I go to sleep and reading a physical book instead so that “blue light” won’t interrupt my sleeping patterns. This morning, I woke up refreshed and energetic after having the first full night of uninterrupted sleep I’ve had in a while. (thank you number one son!!!) This morning, I laid in warm, comfortable bed and had a moment of clarity then thought of these few things: I am able to pay my bills on time. I landed a special project that brings in additional income. I am living in a home that the Creator blessed me with and others (who did not know me) conspired for me to have it at $30,000 less than the value and asking price. I am driving a car that only a couple of years prior to buying it, I felt that I would not be able to afford. I am blessed to have a group of author friends or are like family and they rotate waking me up and/or talking me home on a daily basis. I am blessed to have a mentor who helps me keep my sanity and provides words of wisdom that is helping me to grow. But here is the one thing that should make all others pale by comparison: I am a woman who is carrying several unneeded (and unwanted) pounds (Okay, plus size, fat, overweight, obese—whatever you want to call it), and I am—get this—PAIN FREE and DISEASE FREE. No diabetes, No high blood pressure, No High Cholesterol—absolutely not a single inkling of pain in my body. If there is anything that I should be the most grateful for—it is that. So many people wake up to unbearable emotional and physical pain on a daily basis, and merely wish that they had my life—as simple as I like to live it (eat, sleep, write, work, edit, consult, dance). All of this, and I have the nerve to be angry? No. No. No. There is no time for that. The day before yesterday, I was off my square as had been the case for a while. Yesterday, I took my life back. Yesterday, I pushed the reset button. Today, that fire is back. Today, I vow to be forever grateful—one minute at a time, one hour at a time, one day at a time. Grateful. Blessed. Simplifying my life. Reaching my goals. Watch out world, Naleighna Kai is going to do some thangs up in this camp right here. I am blessed and supernaturally favored. And no one can take that from me
Posted on: Fri, 16 Jan 2015 23:45:55 +0000
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